perhaps it's a hello
to a new chapter

perhaps it's a warning
to run before it's too late

perhaps it's a goodbye
because it is too late

but i can feel my life
waving at me

and it's okay that
i can't figure out why

but it's probably bad
that i don't care

rather, i can't care anymore
because i've cared too much

28.06.20

a blinking signal to turn,
a stop sign or an oil spill
a yellow brick road,
a deadly cliff or a wild deer

an angel in disguise,
a sunset or a rugged path
a lethal car crash
a swerve to a new direction

either way

my feet are steady
on the gas pedal
and my eyes
are closed

28.06.20

i need to clean my room
i need to clear my mind
i've been missing therapy
and my studies are behind

i need to help my friends
i need to fix my fan
i have exams in two weeks
and my brain is in a sham

but today,
i made a cheesecake
and i'm learning that
that is good enough

28.06.20

Redbull and ***** in your bottle
With cigarettes up your sleeve
You can't go to sleep at night
When it's day you hardly breathe

Talking with you hurts
You try to push me away
Sometimes I think of leaving
I won't have to see you decay

But you were there for me
So I'll be there for you
I can't help you get better
But I'll try to see it through

I'm not complaining
Or making it about me
I just wish you could be able
To let us set you free