As long as I have lived my life,
I thought it would be all smiles.
But should I tell you a story, where I cried all night,
Despite my sufferings, I would still stand and fight.
For I have known, my life is nothing but chaos,
Chaos everyday and everytime.

I thought I would live my life – right and bright,
But what is this darkness that surround me all the time.
People say I am sad and I am depressed,
But no, I know, I am not.
I am just trying, trying to be me and trying to fight,
living in this chaos and to smile.

The first time we fell in love,
You took my hand and we ran away.
To our world that sparkled with twinkling stars,
Where our love bloomed with the roses.
The first time we broke up,
You left my hand and rip apart our world.
The fallen stars and the throne roses,
Never to be the same again.
Our life drifted away,
Our love faded in the sky.
But the heart remembered,
the twinkling feeling when I saw you again.
My dear love.

Last night I saw you in my dream, Mom

You stood still, even though I called,
I screamed, but you did not turn.
I was scared of losing you again;
I cried and cried and cried.

Then your warmth enveloped me,
Like a baby, I drifted off in your lap.
I felt complete when I woke up today;
I missed you and your gentle presence.

Thank you, Mom.

The life I wanted, created a chaos within me,
Will the struggles result or just tires me?
The dream felt so far that the walk I made,
not even reached a part of it.
The lone life with the books around me,
Made the surrounding more funnier than it really is.
Heart felt so empty, that none could fulfill,
The words that I cannot share sealed me.
Life went from fun to hatred and I never knew,
Dream became a nightmare that I never woke from
To remain alone was what I chose,
But the group felt warm and close.
To wake from that nightmare, to make it a dream again,
Will always be my devotion towards it.
But when I say “I have had enough”,
Will I get the credit for it?

The moon is in the sky ,
But the night has yet to come.
The street lights has been lit,
But the world is still bright.
The flickering light around me,
Says its time go home,
Cause the moon is calling me back,
And, so is the street lights.
But I want to spend one more minute,
Away from those that can see my emotion,
And live in a different world,
Away from the moon and the street lights.

With you, I always thought life was beautiful.
Our lives, our smiles they would last long,
Garnered beautifully like a garden of roses,
Our tangled life seemed more like an imaginary world.
Our fights that I thought was a bond,
Was a curse to you.
Your tears I thought was a silly emotion,
Created a misery in your life.
The love that I protected against the world,
I was it’s own enemy.
The day you left, I waited on the way.
Had I thought you would never returned,
I would have never let you go.
Our love crumbled without a beacon of hope,
And, It was me who destroyed it, but I never knew.

I slipped like a shoe from Cinderella,
But he caught my hand.
I was capturing his sight in my eyes,
But was dumbfounded,
When he embraced me in his arms.
Dream, was what I thought,
Cause there were no camera,
To capture this ongoing drama.
What will be next, “a kiss”!!!!
Well, probably not or,
Did he actually miss?
“Are you okay?”, his voice gushed like a sweet air,
My senses got hit & I stood up.
“Yes”, I gestured.
“Well, would you be kind enough to let me go?”, he smirked.

Don't do this, and don't do that,
I heard from every person that I met.
Dreaming of conquering the world,
I wanted to go farther away.
Not letting anyone block my way,
Changing the world would what I say.
But they would always say no,
For every dream I saw,
Any path I walked, was blocked anyway.
My way was broken and shattered,
From the single word they said,"NO".

Precious are those eyes,
Which let me see beyond the sky.
Who would have known,
the sight turned blur before the dawn.
The two glasses in front of my eyes,
Nevertheless made the surrounding clear than ere.
Now those eyes who would give up before the fight,
Roams around the sky again to find its sight.

Don’t remind me of thee, whose memory shall never pass,
I shall create a edifice, which will never be cross.
In the memory of whom I have cried all night,
Those days I shall never want.
Of thee whose memories I can never erase,
The fondness of whose will never cease.

I sat on the couch,
In tears but with a smile.
Happy and satisfied,
Relieved of the stress I’d carried for a while.

Afraid of being alone,
I would sit and often cry;
But now I found hands of some,
happy to walk with me.
I hoped to be happy in loneliness;
But was happy with a group around.

A long way I have yet to walk,
But I have overcome with the fear.
The fear that’s been eating me for years now;
Has now breathed to death.
I am free bird ,
Whose feathers have now stretched;
Flying towards the sky,
Believed to fly up and down,
But now never to lose hope again.

The life of my beloved,
Has piled under the snow.
The warmth within my heart,
Has turned cold.
The tears mourn for his life,
And the scream of grief it left behind.
Halt the world,
For it has brought pain to my love.
I shall vow the world may crumble,
For it would know what err it has done..

I woke up in the middle of the night,
A ghost was sitting by my side.
He asked, “How was your sleep?”
I replied, “Why are you looking at me like a creep?”
“I wanted to know if you had a good sleep.”
“Well, not with someone watching me.”
“Shall I sing you a lullaby ?”
“I wish you’d just go away.”
“Well, I only came to say Hi.”
“Do you really need a reply?”
“No, my work here is done.”
As he left, my breath returned, and my eyes opened wide.