Two stones eroding,
Neither willing to give ground;
Forever bonded

Tick
Tick
Tick
Against my wrist
Against my mind
Tick
Tick
Tick
Forever pushing forward
Forever falling behind
Tick
Tick
Tick
Gears turning it's face
Gears turning my mind
Tick

Tick


Tick



Until this moment lasts forever

It's simple to you

It's not for me

I'm sorry that that's an issue

We gather again tonight
Friends coming together
Enjoying the one hobby we all share.




So why do I feel dread?

A thousand things you'd never do
Have become the thousand things you're doing.

But I get it.

She means more to you than I do.
More than I ever did.
Because to you she's a woman.
And that's the one thing I'll never be to you.

A glare bores into the back of my skull,
I can feel it when I look away.
It exudes more pressure each night and day
And leaves my nerves too full.

Whenceforth does it spring from?
This gaze that drills deep into me?
Why must it lie where I cannot see,
Intent on making me numb?

I'm left adrift in an auburn sky,
Horizons choked black by dust and ash,
Flung up by frustrations and actions too brash,
And ever-longing wishes to die.

And all progress crashes down.
Despite everything I've worked at,
I'm beating myself up again.
Maybe I just like the pain?
Every effort of progress falls flat,
Every day a chance to be faulted for a frown.