The world fades for just a moment,
A single instant with nothing afore me.
This is different from normal, that's clear.
Not the sudden loss of time I fear
Will set the anxieties of she
Who could never read my intent.

Yet gazing into my reflection,
My eyes see once again,
I return exactly where I left.
This time, I'm not bereft
Of what is torn in twain
From my perception.

This time was different,
Though as exactly why,
I'm ignorant.
But I won't let my mind die.

My life is one born of instinct;
I act, I do not think.
Your accusations are indistinct,
but rational.
How could I possibly argue your truth?
Still, I feel my heart sink.
Perhaps I'm too lost in my youth.
My intrinsic patterns proved fatal.

Calling me a prepubescent child felt unneeded though.

It is maddening
To see you suffer so much
Your fields dry, barren.

I wish I could help
But my desert is arid
I've no rains to share

Instead I must watch
See as your life empties out
History repeats

A moment more akin to eternity,
Yet an option otherwise is something to fear.
I have days when I want her,
Yet more days when I don't.
I must live without the clarity
Of what I really want so dear;
Maybe it's simpler to just endure,
Even if I know I won't.

The loneliness hurts,
But it's all I know.

Does it bring you sick joy?
Or do you even notice what you do?
You broke me like some toy,
And still my only purpose is to annoy...
Don't you get that?

I'm afraid of you.

See me cower away into the background
Any time you look my way;
I try to spread your words around,
But your presence clammed up what I needed to say.
But you like that.

You love to be feared.

This place feels safer
This blanket of night holds me
I thought you would know

But I guess I'm wrong
My eyes cannot see the truth
Because you're long gone

I think I'll miss you
But only when I'm awake
Always preferred sleep