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I'm sick of the late nights full of conflict in my soul

I'm sick of who I was

Satan used to tempt me with thoughts of suicide

The only way I thought the struggle could end

But I won't let Satan have me

Some nights I just want to scream!!

Jesus stormed the gates of hell and broke the rules of death

So why must I feel this conflict?

Because Satan knows what I was called to do

All I see are the mountains God allows him to put in my way

Sometimes those mountains look so big and I feel so small

Why does the darkness often seem more visible then the light?

I'm sick of darkness

I wish I could rip my chest open tear the sin from my soul

But that's not the way it works the only one who can cleanse me daily is Christ
Living

Going day to day

The same old same old

Living like a paper airplane that was never folded

When I don't talk

I lose track

I fall out of tune

It's hard to talk sometimes

When I don't know what I'm feeling

I do know

It's hard to live

Without a word
Every morning I wake up

Thinking what am I doing here

A past that haunts me

A God who already won me

So why do these demons taunt me

I only see now it's because I didn't give the fight to the one who already one

So now

I give it all to you God

My past

My pain

My hurt

My regret

My love

My peace

My chaos

My false gods

I give it all to you

I love you

Now I will take up my cross and follow you

I'm gonna shut up because this is a ***** sinner speaking

So I will shut up so you can listen to the God who made you

I give up the fight

To Christ
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She asked, "Why I cried?"

I just looked up at her and smiled.

She asked, "Why I cried?" a second time.

Still looking up at her I continued to smile.

She sat down beside me as I fixed my eyes upon the blue sea.

"The clouds looks quite grey today." she said to me

Yes indeed it is,  I think it's going to rain today.

"Let's get going before it does." she said.

I hope it does.

"Why?"she asked.

So I can sit here and cry.

"Why"

It's better to cry in the rain.

No-one will know the difference from my tears to that of the rain.

"But why do you cry?"

The tears I cry are tears of joy, pain, sorrow, hate, love and fear.

Every tear drop is a part of me as I am apart of it.

With every drop of tear filter's me as I filter it.

I cry because tears are words the heart can't say.

I cry because my tears are words that my heart can't say.
There's a God who loves you who will carry you on his back

Jesus Died and fought for you

The devil wants you dead

If anything fight because he will win

I may not know your pain

But you have a life to live

If you read this and turn up dead

Others won't know how to live with the pain

Jesus loves you

You may not feel it

Why do we act on feeling on instinct

When at the end of the tunnel there is a God who gave everything for you

Call on the Holy spirit

Call on the name of Christ and you can beat this depression

If you believe in him He will fight for you

Give up fighting him

Don't pull the trigger
I've talked about this before

Staying up on those long nights

Looking at a knife that I wanted to put in my chest

I knew that I would go to heaven because I knew Christ

I also knew that I would hurt a lot of people

People I loved

I also knew my life was a gift and it wasn't mine to take

I remember the constant pain

Thinking I was worthless

So don't you dare put that gun to your head and pull the trigger

If you feel like doing this to yourself

Message me

I don't care who you are or where you've come from

If it means your not the next suicide that hear in the news tomorrow it's worth it

So don't you dare pull that trigger

No matter what you think there is always someone out there who loves you

I will stay up with you during those long nights

I don't care who you are I love you

Not with an American objectifying love

Or a conditional love

But with a brotherly love

The Love of Christ

If you pull the trigger

There's no going back

You were given a life

A purpose

Your life isn't yours to take
Broken homes

Broken hearts

Broken dreams

All the trials

Pour out into piles

When I try to grow closer to God it's always two steps forward and one back

It creates more demons I have to attack

All this pain

All this sorrow

It breaks my heart

All of these broken pieces form a ground

That breeds Warriors

Warriors that are strong and determined

Warriors who won't back down

Warriors who are willing to give up everything they are

Warriors who are full of love, mercy, compassion

Warriors who have a righteous anger contained and at bay

Warriors who fight the greatest battles......

Humble on their knees
I've never been good at an intro

So just let me cut to the chase of what many of you have been through

Addiction

Shame

Guilt

Depression

Anxiety

Losing loved ones

All I can say is that my heart breaks

All around me all I see is pain

But I also see healing that you can't contain

I see broken homes

Broken families that seemed alone

I cry out to you who feel this pain

I know you're at your lowest

I know where you're at

I remember losing the fight but then Jesus came up to bat

You thought you could win on your own

I know now Satan's trying to break my hunger

My hunger for Jesus seems to be dying

But I see now that I'm just inches from winning

What ever it is

What ever the pain

Never let suicide be the way out

Don't pull that trigger!!!

I've had my highs and my lows

My Joy and my Tears

But whatever the pain is I beg of you

Follow Jesus

Because only he

Can Beat it
 Jun 2018 ClawedBeauty101
Lizzie
I didn't mean to, please forgive me?
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