External distractions
For internal ailments
Why ponder my condition when I can dance in the moonlight?
Big screen for the dopamine
Small screen for the socialite
A seed yet to sprout--my social life
Some nights, these thoughts bring fright
Am I the only one whose mind has foresight?
How long can this go?
How long can I go?
The flesh is tempered
But my soul is tired
I'm always tired
Please, please, I need rest
Please, please, I'm doing my best
Please, please, I am my own mess

7 + 2= 9
12 x 12= 144
2xy - xy= 2

Will I be a light?
To drive away the fright?
How coarse is the sand?
Will I ever learn
How to soar away?

One day
One month
One year
Time flew by.

How do I grow?
Will I be a mold?
Are you okay alone
Mom and dad?

Will you be sad
When I have to go?

Living in boxes
Offering a view
Of freedom
Modern mirages
Life was never free
Free to work
Enslaved to life
In our world
There are no enemies
Who do we fight to unlink our chains?
Our war? My war? Their war?
Across the land, over the hills, under the caverns
All a reminder:
All our problems originated with us
We are the real enemy
Now tell me what have I missed?
Was this world always like this?

How many layers
Divide instinct?
Fake problems
To avoid false promises
Drama kid, multiplied by a species
So easy
A measly disease
Now I know the reason
Feelings change like the season
May be a human
But with this act, I commit treason
Tired of the act, all I will drop is fact:
The life built for us resides not with us
Freedom is a concept
Divided by forceps
Tell me who you are
Then stop at the fourth step

Look out for demise
Someone may bother with yours
Willing to risk it?

Thumb
Express gratitude
With one another
Or offend
In a distant land
Index
Accuse someone
Of stealing a fortune
Combine with the thumb
To showcase another’s misfortune
Or greet
With a fleshy gun sign
Middle
Offend quickly
Minimal effort required
Showcase your anger
While hurting another
Who’s gonna stop you?
Ring
Useless alone
Practical with others
Only has value
When combined with jewels
Use to start new life
Or end one
Pinky
Hospitality and courtesy
Aside from those
Small in stature
Still like all the others
Use to show commitment
Accompanied by a promise
Broken like bones
But…
Who came up with this?

You are a myth, unreal
I am the surreal, ethereal
Silk hiding beneath steel
All you know is how to conceal
Disappointment from the ideal
So tell me, how do you really feel?
As the wheel of fate
Turns to your last repeal

Will we make it?
Do we want to?
Hah!
If only life were so simple
Every action reverberates into ripples
Which I cannot control
Tension and arguments
Shifting eyes, intense moments
We seek stability
It's in our humanity
But as the sand starts to fall
All I want to see is you

Enjoy life today
No more ranting, for minutes or months
To conformity

Even in death
We want to look alive
Glimmering and stunning
For no one to witness
A mummy is only alive in the likeness
Never in peace, can we rest?
Fashion and fame, left behind in legacy
Easily dismantled in the face of jealousy

Creatures of imitation
I call you now
We may be human
But we reject and disallow
Look at the trees, see the air in the leaves
Push and pull as one fulfills needs
So complex
Yet we forget the simple rules
Harmony
Ruined by the lead
Superiority
Born by the urge to creep
Power, not real
All it does
Brings us the zeal for the end

Poor in mind
Rich in soul
Widely concluded
To be better than most

You want an heir
All I did was stare
How could you share this?
Why? Where?
Here? Elsewhere?
Another life in the system
Of a beautiful plastic world
So unfair and volatile
Brimming with bile
Swimming in false smiles
How can I stare into the eyes of my heir
Showing my twisted reflection
Devoid of emotion

The community leaders
Heads of the clans
Shine toward peace
Yet, they cast a shadow
Anointed with power

Against the wind
A car pushes forward
I'm in it
Looking over and over
At a world so pure
Full of sunlight
Free from daily strife
But oh
Here I am
Taking a trip down to my decent
A rollercoaster that only goes one way
D
    o
      w
         n
To the depths
Send a postcard
Even my family cares about
Where I'd end up
Once all is spoken
Promises broken
Did what I could
More rigid than wood
Regret my mistakes
Now I'm stuck in this place
Full of blaze and constant craze
Road pulled out from under
Time to plunder
Was this the life I've been preparing for?

WELCOME TO HELL
...
Wait...
This is a gas station bathroom
...
You cruel fate dictator!

I leaned over to the man
With shaking legs
A face, weathered by tension
I looked into his eyes and asked:
"Sir, how did you end up here?"
He replied with no hesitation
"I cared too much about others
Now with my condition
I am no one without another."

Hopeful tones
Splattered on the walls
I see the bells
Yet I hear no sound
At the top, I stand
Hearing no one
At the bottom, I crawl
Hearing everyone
In the middle, I kneel
I can hear the top
I can hear them now
But now all I know
Will be ****** out
By the time I stand
All the love will come out
Until what remains
Becomes lies, never found
Now, here I am
Hear me now
Before I get pushed to the back
Until I bow
Here I am now, here I am now
No matter the height I jump
I'll always be afraid
Of the here and now

Old heroes
Come into view
So too, does harsh reality
Age comes experience
Of which, they can no longer use

Grey clouds dangle over
Heaven obscured from our sight
Hell, forever still

What's in it?
Should be asking
What was used to make it?

Someone must be tossed below
For others to be
On top of the world

Holidays
A form of tradition and celebration
Where the meaning it once had
Has been slandered
Trace back the origin all we want
We can never replicate the essence
Reformation is required
How can we give thanks for giving if we give nothing?

All these thoughts pirouette
Spinning merry-go-round
With no merry to go around
How could I be happy when
We are all slaves to fixation
Sensations with no liberation
Across the nation
Taxation and stagnation
A sickness with a correlation
No navigation for our permutation
Mutated faces, all an affectation
Annihilation, assassination
Our own worlds built for encapsulation
Polarization, exaggeration
Visualizations of victimization
We sit back and lose preservation
My happiness is no obligation
Just a replication of past elation
Hollow aspirations
Built by alienation

Water
Falling down
Not from above
But from these two voids

Aesthetics
Embodied into a visage
Becoming beauty
Now, becoming obsessive
Why make a life revolving around a trend?
Separate the man from the clan
Lest the appearance turns deadpan

Today we ventured
Tomorrow we adventure
Yesterday we vented
No matter the day
All it takes is you
To bring out the best in us
Humanity with no vanity
Perfect unification
Boys and girls with no correcting
When clouds block our shine
We never whine and only delight!
Even when the days seem so long
I know you are with me
Our hearts beat in the style
Of our own stories

Proud to be where I'm from
But home is in front of me
Not of me
Separate from the serpent
Capital Hill
Need a capital offense to live
Walking up hills
Just to take spills

So close, so near
Yet, you do not feel here
How can such little space
Feel like lightyears?
Amongst a crowd
They could all look at me
And still I would say:
Why do I feel empty?

If I am me
Then what are you?
What if we are the same
Am I you too?
Doppelganger
In the flesh
But if they are better than me
Is this my final rest?
Replaceable, traceable
I correspond
But cannot comprehend
At the end of the day
Am I just, homogenous?

Like a storm that you can't predict
Nature of the trick
So unusual
No longer useable
In the remnants of reality
Use it wisely, just like all things
A weapon or a solution?
Up to what your consciousness dictates.

I hope for the day
We stop praying toward optimism
Expecting the best
While denying the rest
We all know how to hope
But, what about living?

Where does it lie?
The answer
How does anyone...
...save the world from the end?

How much inspiration-
In a desolate world
Has been given out
By corporate masses?

Drive me down to Jupiter
Largest it can be
A home
Which I cannot occupy
Unless I'd like to
Fall asleep for eternity
So for today
Let's journey
Down to
Rapture's landmark

I've returned home
Yet it feels so lone
Tonight it feels desolate, alienation
But it always felt safe, secluded, selective
Have I changed too much?
Have I changed just a little?
Has my nostalgia been convicted, begging for an acquittal?
My mind is stuck, my heart is struck
Rabbits chased each other, running for hours
I want to run with the rabbits, but, for how far?
Maybe they grew, beyond me and you
I want to grow, but my home is no more
Being independent is not a life that's splendid
Why should I grow if it just means I'll be alone?

Blood and bones
Flesh like honey
Attached to the earth, by a stem
Gravity

Look for the humble
The greedy had enough time
In the limelight
About time we changed the spotlight.

Alpha, omega
Beginning, end
All tune in for them
While cutting out the middle

Don't shake this hand
Caked in moisture
I'm sorry
I didn't want this either

Left in a chokehold
Shaking like a soldier
Fear in boulders
Panic smolders
Assess, respect, protect and direct
There is no safe place for the hyperactive
Distracted, safety redacted
In new frontiers
Unwavering plight
In old pastors
Unyielding fights

The rising sun
Brings no joy to my face
Life moves on
But I never started the race
Destined to fall
Fated to fail
I've seen enough now
What makes you think I'll be gold?
Born bold
But no megaphone gets free from the cold
Everything recycled
From an age of old
Not even angry
Just proves my rapport
New is just old
Stripped away for the poor
Of heart, of love, of life
Let me lay, I need sleep
Let me hope that one day
My fatigue will relieve
So that the next day
Maybe, I can stand, awake

Tribalism, factionalism
To describe our modern world
Takes only two words:
Despondent reconciliation
Across the whole nation
Affirmations can't solve stagnation
Rather be a ******* crustacean
Watching as the world lacks declaration
Manmade abomination
A search for civility led to hostility
"Our way is peace"
"Follow our law"
Same agenda, a different vocation
Sitting on the side exclaiming:
You brought your own damnation
Yelling for compensation

Idealism, the evolution of optimism
Idealists need to remain cautious
So their wings
Do not burn

Always been told
That we are not machines
Yet, our world is built like this:
Routine, repair
Relinquish, revere
All fact no speculation
We must continue
But really, do we?
Here is the summation:
Becoming victims of liquidation
Just by going on vacation
Choosing vocations
Just to chase stagnation
Chasing relations to find salvation
Just to receive probation and isolation
Mutations of liberation
Lasting for long durations
We are machines, observe our foundation
Full of mutation, renovation
Life is a sacred thing
Yet, look at the pain we bring

My name is an identity
Everything else
Just call those credentials

Self-evident truths
Life, liberty, together
All for one, none else

The apex of the land
Untouchable, unstoppable
No one can break them!
...
It gets lonely at the top
Coming up with daily routines
Just to distract from reality
Simulated conflict
Fictional biographies
All to tell us lessons
About the truth of our reality
...
On our day of enlightenment
If it ever comes
The flesh and blood we consume
Will taste stale
...
All we have been doing is sophistication imitation.

Even when hands start to loosen
Grip on reality
Starts to slip
Look back
Moments when everything
Was in your control...
Wait
Is that even possible?

They painted you in their colors!
Attached strings to your frame
Call you a master, yet..
Behind this facade
Resides the masters in the shadows