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Aug 2015 · 908
Too me, too free
Chad Ware Aug 2015
I have paved this unholy road of emotional oppression. The guilt is mine alone. Blanket it all with my water soluble love, or rather lack there of. Make me hurt, I'll make me bleed. I am my own worst enemy.

I live a lie and my promise will cut you from behind. Don't believe in me, I won't believe in me. Don't believe or it will only hurt me.

Newborn in spirit, 26 in soul. Learn to love and to fall, but never again to numb it all. Hatred for who I am. Yet the faint beat can be revived again. A flatline, shot from a cap, I hate where I'm at.

Bridge~
Time to prove, time to move. Time will save me from hurting you.

I hate this lie and my promise may cut you from behind. Please wait to believe, I can't yet believe. Relapse may be my destiny.

Sometimes I wonder about the broken hearts. A path of destruction behind, open blameless road ahead. Follow me.. Wait not yet! I'm not ready! Don't push me!  just let me be. Keep the beast oppressed, never yet be unleashed.

No more lies, no more wounds for you, only my death or honesty. If your ready to believe, I might be. **** ******! it's not me. Burn this tourniquet, freedom is mine to retrieve. freedom is mine to retrieve.
Aug 2015 · 599
Searching
Chad Ware Aug 2015
Searching fulfillment in empty one liners, but nothing that will cure this curse.
Try and force something out of nothing, worthless dominates my words.
If one line has potential to save a life and my footsteps aren't alone in the sand.
Turn up the volts! Shocked me into hopeless, helpless hope.
Looking to Reading for inspiration, but it's a coin flip with condemnation.
I've dropped into C#, writing lines still far apart.
Dry like the sand lines and I'm praying for this last restart.
Repetition after repetition...
Bad decisions after bad decisions...
Last act and final show...
Hopeless and alone....
FORCE ME!
I'll die...
LOVE ME!
I'll cry...
Try and force something out of nothing, faking salvation in repeat.
Just set me free and let it come to me, my claustrophobic enemies....

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