tall with amazing muscles
a weird beard
and rocking Elvis costume
"there I was"

Sassy and notorious looks
wore parachute pants
with a small v-neck top
wow make up and bangles
"there she was"

we partied
and danced none stop
on Jackson's thriller

Son! follow my steps keenly
learn from my mistakes
....before your mother
love troubled my heart

I only dreamt
but for a while

*I had hopes
for a better tomorrow

for you






for me






for us





I was young and still falling in love
I was young and still learning how to fly
I was young and still discovering nature and the wilds

I am still
young
and that
I fear most

echoes of the days long gone
reminiscing, reminiscing
memories is all you have
before memories is all I had

at 7 I was just a young toddler who enjoyed climbing trees and taking risks

at 15 the world felt more real ,my innocence taken,now am more cautious

at 20 I enjoy studying and hopes to be a doctor are still fresh
but am forced into love, just blinked and am a wife and a mother

here I am crying ,trying to stitch up this broken heart at 27.
Love is not bad but falling in love is horrible,a thought I pondered upon

here i am
Just turned 80
seen enough evil and nasty
experienced love and wonders of this planet
years are lessons
that I tell you

Loool,***
Haha haha
I can't breath
what a joke

write me a whaaaat?
you must be insane

I wrote you a freaking journal
how you reaped my heart and jumped on it
c'mon babes you forgot that already

okey let's try this again
remember the pressure you gave me
the dramas
seeing you was traumatising
loving you was, is and will always be
the hardest thing I've ever done

so yeah
I wrote you a poem
just one poem
but I couldn't finish it
the pen rebelled
the ink stopped flowing
my hands trembled
and my heart pounded fiercely
the words were too heavy
so they remain stuck on my throat

After enough heart breaks
I finally found a perfect hypocrite
who loved me "supposedly" unconditionally
our days were full of light
felt like moon was a little closer

like a flower we blossomed
we emitted a heavy fragrance
haters choked on it

each day we fell more and more in love

woow to that love
it was crazy and adventurous
while I bought her guns and bullets
bows and arrows

she got me flowers and chocolates
wrote me heart quenching poems
and at night ,serenaded my heart

I painted her staircase pink
and got her ***** dresses
her walking upstairs
the view I enjoyed

But sigh!things just changed
its dawn, sun is up and the moon far gone
Medusa turning me into a stone
would have been merciful

maybe I did overdone something's
believing I was cementing our fragile relationship
after all
the road to hell is filled with good intentions

Let's be honest-you love your children and would do anything for them,
but you secretly dread school holidays
because they turn your otherwise calm and orderly life into a chaotic spin.

If I make it to ramadhan
I'll pray for peace and stability of this planet

with so much devotion
I'll ask God to guide us from the delusions of this earth

I'll pray for guidance
more knowledge and wisdom

Insha Allah i will pray and weep dearly for our sins and the sad state that the humanity has succumbed to

I will seek his love
not his anger and wrath
I will seek his forgiveness and mercy with so much humility and tranquility

may he guide us to the right path
may our hearts grow tender and full of love for God/Allah

Ever thought what's like to lose the rest of your life in a second
in a blink of an eye

Your twelve year old relationship gone with the wind
your wife is now somebody's wife,happily married for 5years

Your eleven year old kid
now a fully 'bass' teenager

your grandma
she's been dead for almost a decade

how could you know any of this
you couldn't
you just blinked and its ten years later

Your not part of present at all
you're the past
you've always been the past

Am growing feeble and older
am history,a forgotten sentence
a word covered in dust
a prose stuck in the mud
a rhyme waiting to flow

I've had enough of your blows
"I was once a great writer" but you ain't anymore
I might spit words that will get you choked
the days of future past belongs to the old

You are a fool young linguist
you strive for dust,
believing it's gold
quench your thirst,
but don't live life fast
you might turn into rust

hey
am still a toddler
who breaks hearts
and still fills much stronger

breaks hearts!
you've been waiting for months,
weeks and centuries
to be told I love you
but as for me
for every word i wrote
they fell in love

Smile, breathe,believe

The guest is gone
I can't help it but weep
For sure am heading back to sleep
My lost soul chained i  can't leap
I still joke that the guest is gone
So i meek with destiny for my own
nake

tell me why we never changed
tell me how we always go back
tell me why we are still tamed
tell me if there's good in badness that
we aspire

change is a difficult deed
your only required to decide
though the puzzle is their to 'slug'
you behind

don't let your spirits and confidence
be undermined
with void and vanity of this world
protection comes from your lord
So seek guidance from greed
with the world coming to a certain
end
cynics as brothers you don't need

pray for us and them
that we all glow while darkness fades

Your good with words
words that are full of hope

words that remind us
life isn't that terrible after all

Words that are thunderous
yet they calm the heart

Words that **** the venom
life has inflicted on us

Your words are glorious
don't put down your pen

You'll always be who you believe to be

Its nothing if your old and weary
you still posses devastating words
so take my heart
and give me yours

I've decided to reduce my daily consumption of worldly affairs

I stopped writing like I used to
and I tried writing like your used to
but the syllables and hard words am not used to

am dry with words that can intoxicate you
but I know if I write my truth
the stars will glow as the wind brings you

so am gonna write to unfreeze my heart
am gonna write the unspoken words
am gonna write to free me from the chains that strangle me

Maybe am in ruins and lost
trying to get you at all cost
with this broken
and burdened heart

I was never your ghost
but the idea of you, me, just us
i love it most

Sometimes I write words that I think are perfect and mighty

but when I read your words ,they ******* me ,they make me feel like a nonsense trying to make sense

They make me Wonder, why should i call  me a poet
With words that don't rhyme  
or flow

But again I believe that this words are perfect and mighty
they gave me hope
I found peace whenever I wrote them
I floated like a feather and forgot my permanent scars
with these words am a Knight and a hero

I wanna write a poem that is thunderous
'to show that this lion can definitely roar'

I wanna write a poem that will leave you gaping 'no,he didn't just write that'

I wanna write a poem that explains the reason for my existence

I wanna write a poem about earth
'how its beauty extends from the sky to the land and blue seas

I wanna write a poem that is priceless
'you like it ,reread it,and probably fall in love with it

I wanna write a poem about her
'her beauty is enough to drive you insane

I wanna write a poem about your atrocities
infidels and your toxic relationship

I wanna write a poem that is simple

I wanna write a poem that values love
'explain why true love grows on the basis of mutual respect and reciprocity

I wanna write a poem about who I am

I wanna write a poem of us
'how magical and beautiful our love was

I wanna write a poem that flows like energy

I wanna write a poem about forgiveness
'anger malice and hate shouldn't be your daily meal'

I wanna write a poem about poets
'your brains are vast'

I wanna write a poem that draws wisdom from all cultures

It's safe to say that I have grown out of this imaginary world
I've accepted to fight this battle and ran away from this illusions

Life is a gamble but death is certain

Am a man of many faces
but today I choose to be courageous

                        humbled despite my venomous thoughts
I choose to rise above and be that hero you think I am  

I've been a tenant of hopelessness
today I dare to be happy and take a leap of faith
today I vacate this home of frawn, misfortune and puppetry

I choose to be me

Remember all the goose bumps inducing promises you made to me
well yes you do
you compelled this **** to love you forever

am that ****
the **** who lost'd his bullets
while trying to dive into solitude

Fiolina! Fiolina
the ache of my life
it hurts like nine hells
if you could see the burden behind these eyes
like how i felt when you left me behind!

you were my heart beat
being apart from you was more painful than my wounds

dear comrades
introduce me to whatever you've been smoking
i need to take a puff of this misery
and blow out all this sorrow

So what happens after we fall in love
then I tell you stories
The ones that are invisible to the eyes of many

Then I grew old and reminisced on my weary love aches
the ones that got you here

Once upon a time the moon was brighter than the sun
now that's how you begin a love story
then I tell you about the daring ghosts

But first love her most
your mother
the months of agony are irreplaceable, priceless

My child
Love is real
you float like a feather
Then when you find your person
be sure to tell your kids that
Love is Life

This is gonna sound like more pain
but if you don't like me drink some propane
go write about it

I don't take drugs but only a morphine
trying to runaway from more pain
blessing on top of sins
In your heart I rest in pieces

They just don't get it
In your thoughts I sweat blood
a very torn heart!
Ohh!
I ran into my old flame
***** you broke my heart
but there's no more pain

Its a cold world
You could be my lighter
and we'll all burst into flames

Me and you
Could ride on this road called desire
but I don't want no more old flames
I don't wanna get burned
no more pains!