It isn't a surprise that I’m leaving
So stop acting like you know me.

“If you had your last dime, would you give it to the one you love?”
I want to offer you something big enough to build and end dreams.

But I can only give you an apology
Cause Papa died and the little Bee ran away
And those I didn't push out couldn't reach me in time
So when you called my name you became mine.



Papa died but then you called my name
You called my name and I can't move.
Stuck with you, crying on the phone
Can't move, I can't touch you!

“I'm just stuck with you on the phone.”


Crying on the phone but you didn't hear me
Cause you filled the silence with your stories so I don't leave.
When you turn and look at me,
I wanna yell that you're wrong.

That my heart was never really yours.
But I can't speak, can't move,

I can't breathe.
Cause you called out my name.


Papa died and you call out my name
Your words held me.
But I’ve stopped apologising to Papa at night.
And I’ve found the little Bee and she's shining really bright.

Yet when you look at me I can’t move.

“You see, that's the problem with you.”

Twelve hours is a long time.
If a life can change in a moment.
Then 12 hours can be a lifetime.

Twelve hours is a whole half of a day
It's a lifetime.
So why did you take a lifetime
To tell me Papa died.

Mama asked me if I want to come to the funeral
“ When I get back from work, I’ll call you
She gave me 12 hours to give my answer.

But I can't leave yet
I have so much to prove
Education is not just paper and pen
And I don't wanna live like you.

So we make a deal.
Give up Papa's love and I’ll give you  
thirty acres and a mule.

“ What kind of daughter trades her father for a lie?”

                      ~ A cruel One

Twittledinks,Twittledinks
Say my name it rhymes.
Behind her wings I hide
Cause they snickered and kicked me in the stomach.
You see dominance needs a performance

She's strong and bold
As agile as an arrow in a bow.
She would strike my demons and laugh at how they trembled.
I once called her my angel.
But I had a funny thought when the dusk turned dark and golden.
That betrayal is an easy thing
One day, she might laugh at me trembling.

Twittledinks, Twittledinks
My angel harkens to me.
All laughs, running, calling my name.
I almost forgave her.
I heard the demons snickered when I stuck a knife in her
She looked disgusted and condescending
She said “ you're not worthy to call my name.

I would keep her but I'm not stupid .
You see, I'm weak, lonely and broken.
She smiles while I follow her like a puppy
The darkness laughed and pointed it out to me.
Cause the stronger will always rule the weak
And the wicked will taint the good.
So when I stabbed her,
I snickered
On my behalf no excuses should you ponder.

Twittledinks, Twittledinks
My angel harkens to me.
She smells like the summer rains
I would like to burrow her wings and fly.
She asked ‘why **** the only good you have
So I stuttered with my tongue tied
To tell the truth, I don't know why.

Have you felt your heart being jumpy?
Memories making you flinch and gasped for air.
Like something you have to have but it’ll ruin your whole **** life.
I pleaded and said “ I won't survive when you leave.
So stop convincing and seducing me with an idea that would **** the little Bee.
You see, she made me and breathe life in me.

I owe her a life without pain and uncertainty .
She looked so sad when Becky took the life boat and swam away.
She broke down when LB laughed at the tears in her eyes.
Then she faded when they put Papa in the little box in the ground and sang songs of salvation.

So the little Bee's all I have
And you don't know me cause I buried my past.
The little Bee was always so beautiful but I couldn't see it.
There's so many pieces of her I chopped and burned.
Her many lessons I was forced to learn
So I told her, you should rest with Papa in the land of milk and honey.
That's how I killed the little girl in me.

So don't make me love you and don't promise tender care and comfort.
Giving  a bite of cheese to a mouse, a cup of water to the starved and hopeless.
I can't bet my life on the possibility that you’ll be a good person.
Just leave when it's windy and raining
I’ll blame it on the absence of the sun shining.

I’ve been anxious lately.
Cause my debts to you are a mile high
So I empty myself and show you how I bleed when you cry.
But it isn’t enough
You see, I keep coming up short.


I’ve  been worried lately .
That if I move too slow you’ll leave me behind
Cause you're always too beautiful.
I swear I can be honest and faithful.
Please don't run ahead of me!
Even though, I chase you and stumble you're way out of reach.

Last night I prayed that you won’t leave.
If you ever were jaded or tired of me
I want to be striked by lightning .
Cause I’ll rather die
than watch you leave me behind .

To me,
You are the whole world.
When you leave
I have nothing.

I see you like the ocean.
You move me.
If I can't have a piece of you
I have nothing.

To me,
You're blooming flowers.
When you're here
I see all the colours.


You're like my every dream.
If I can reach you, I win.
Then I wake up and weep.
You're more than a trophy.

To me,
You're air.
When you leave,
I really can't breathe.
I'm simply nothing .

She sunk
When the waves rowed
She sunk.
To a dark, far place of ruin
She sunk.
I tried to grab her hand but
She sunk.

They just watched in a daze as
She sunk.
The sunlight tainted the clear waters as
She sunk.
She was always beautiful till the day
She sunk.
I tried to grab at her feet but
She sunk.

Just drifting and singing that old song
She sunk.
Tell the old and young
She sunk.
On the day, the leaves burned
She sunk.
With curses on her tongue
She sunk.
I tried to grab at her heart but
She sunk.