Give me some adderal
Would it be worth it?
For once to pay attention
To start observing
When you never gave a dime to me
Ignoring
The shrine I built in the likeness of you
Unnoticed glory
I built it with glass and held it together with glue
Your amazing on the outside
But you're so transparent
As soon someone throws a stone
You lose your whole foundation
Won't let someone too close
Afraid the ground will start shaking
When you tremble; and knees get weak
I look at you, and I see a piece of me
Walking away

If I'm sick please be my remedy
If it's music please be my harmony
And baby please if you see my on the street
Don't smile near me
Because I'll fall in love again

They said time flies,
that a moment will fall through your palms like sand
If it's so fast we can't see it with our eyes,
how do I react to a pill this size and
move my hands to guard against
my throat opening;
my hands are closing in.
Reality won't be the death of me,
I'll die awake but dreaming
in a fantasy

Why do you still resent me? Why judge me on my past deeds? I know it's all about who remembers, but no one remembers me. Why do I still have feelings? Why do I still write these? Not like anyone will notice, the way that my smile bleeds.

The lights always seem dimest when the moon shines the brightest
And the sun seems the coldest when your friends are the warmest
But refuse to share
And
I'll refuse to care
So
Sinister blue
Deceiving blonde
Unseeing red
I know you'll all betray me
It's a habit
That one of you already does.

Let’s start something new
Something hidden
A splash in the water
Or a wave in the sea
Just another day
It’s just a memory
a little more than that
it’s a day at the beach
Throwing sand in our eyes
We were blind to see
The magic of what happened right underneath
Our noses
They told us
We were Adam and Eve
But even here in the Garden of Peace
We’re subject to our fathers
Regardless of religion or belief
Who are we to say what don’t exist?
Just because we haven’t seen?
Maybe they’re as daft as we
Maybe it’s right in front of me
The answer to our history
Wherefore art thou Juliet?
Wherefore art thou Capulet?
But what if thou wasn’t?
What if He created you different?
As much as it kills me
It would make a difference
That’s why I’m glad you love me in this life
Because you’re not assured mine in the next
So tonight, I’ll ask for His pen
Because while he tried his best I think that I’d better write the rest
Because we all deserve happiness
The end.

Poison runs through our veins
A mirror shows you the way
Into a light
that burns until ashes remain
and
Our perspective has shifted
You've gone from living a memory
To some *******
Where absolutely nothing has changed
We gave it our all, but it's just not enough
I'm so tired of these stories of love

And from a broken mirror a Phoenix shall rise
Dust to dust it's all the same
Day by day; whether it's him or me

The darkest night
The dullest glow
It's all inside
It's all for love

Repeat

I want to write you a song, but I shouldn't. I want sing these words, but I couldn't. I want to make you smile, but I wouldn't. I want to write you a letter, but how would I put it? I can't even help myself, so how can I help you? I can't stop lying to me, so how do I remain true to you? I'd give anything not to be useless, but my efforts are fruitless to be nothing but ruthless. I think now's a good time. I'll just leave everyone behind and for a while I'll just be mine and I can finally be safe in my mind without these demons inside screaming, "JUST DIE!" Just let me be me, and please, leave me be. For now at least. I'll be back, but don't expect to walk on me. Not again.

I wrote all of these little words for you
but without them I don't know what I'd do
because now that I've lost you
I'm losing these too.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

So fragile we are as humans
We're consumed in
a big pool of mass pollution
of demons who know what they're doing
You smile but
who you fooling?
They've chewed up your skin;
Your body's drooling
The solution is substitution
Clear skin instead of bruises
Smiles that come easy
Not that fake one that you're used to using
I won't let these demons get out of me
I'll drown them inside my joyful sea
No cut's or slits to let them seep through and leak

There is so much more to this happy life
So much that's beyond our line of sight
But behind it is so much weight
People couldn't carry it with all our might
But maybe if we just wait
Maybe if we all smiled for just a day
The weight might be a little less
Maybe we could carry it if we tried our very best
To treat everyone equal and just be nice
*Nothing less.

we should write some sad
songs together
maybe cry until
it feels all better
I know it hurts now
but I'll kiss your wounds
sure your scars will stay
that you always knew
You will be okay
if you let my words
show you the kindness
that your lips deserve

What if the world around you was ending? How many hands would you be lending? How would you save yourself and others? How would you stop yourself from breaking before bending?

What if there were things that you couldn't stop? Would you just sit there and watch? Would your pride get in the way? Or would you look away because you don't have the heart?

What if you controlled time and space? Would you put a smile across every face? What if not everyone could be happy? How would you decide which smile should fade?

I could walk through these school hallways and not see a single thing I like. Not the people, not the posters; It's a horrid ******* sight. I truly hate every word I write and every word I speak. But what's worse, being to **** strong or too **** weak. Because if you're strong you never let anything in. But if your weak you will let them destroy you from within

I’ve never felt this nervous.
I swear it’s never happened like this before.
I just wanted it to be perfect.
I can’t even think straight anymore.
I can’t help but be angry.
It’s just who I have grown to be.
And I hope you don’t blame me.
For holding in the things that I never say.

This is the only time that I won’t have the strength
But tomorrow I know that I’ll be able to have faith
I know that if I can’t then I will never get away

Tonight I will give way
It’s who I am today

It’s just another night.
And I’ll live through it I swear.
But this isn’t your burden.
And I’d never give it to you to bare.
Maybe I’ll hold it all in.
But maybe this a little too much.
I know I’ll let it out without thinking.
It’s just another reason that I am afraid

This won’t be the last time that I won’t get to sleep.
Never again will I be the only one that nobody needs.
I’m breaking out of this shell where I’ll finally be free.

Tonight I can not say
That I am okay

I can’t help but be who I am
And I can’t stand these facts
but I will accept them
I know I’ll never get those nights back

I won’t fight these words you whisper
I know that they are true.
But why are you telling me
When I’d never do this to you.
I won’t argue my opinion
I won’t swim in shallow seas
You’ll never know the secrets I have hidden
If we never speak.
I’ll let these pictures on my walls
And these plastic heart
Stain my memories on my arms
A little blood never hurt no one.

I’m not the only one to have self-inflicted scars
But at least I know that they don’t make us who we are
I can’t let my demons go, but smiling is a start

You’ll never find a heart like me
It’s who I am today

My words may be a hard pill to swallow
But I swear to god it's medicine
My dear, you're just a little sick
And I am all but innocent
I'll take responsibility for it
It's ironic though, isn't it?
You're reading this story
But all you're hearing is sorry
The voices scream that I'm a traitor
But I'm softly saying I forgive you
Maybe one day, "I'll see you later"

Those eyes haven't gone blind
Nor your ears gone deaf
But oddly enough, I keep writing words.
So maybe
Beyond the mirror that hurts us
Beyond the veil that protects us
Beyond the strength of our souls
Beyond the frailty of our hearts
Beyond the test of time
Maybe we never wrote these words to remember
Maybe we wrote them to remind us of a pain we wish so sincerely we'll forget.

Could this hurt get any worse? Could I find the worst way to get away with words that are too harsh to say, but mean the most to me in every way? Could I sway a nation with my writings? Could I come out of hiding and stop the lying and end the constant fighting? Speak my mind with a peace of mind knowing I can sleep at night without constant fright of my fear of heights, or would I die knowing that I tried and I went out defending what was right?
Well, let me speak and I'll show you each that with power comes responsibility and that words from anyone mean more than you think.

(I) s this really all that's left?
(C) an I get out as a thinker with a pen?
(A) m I worth the trouble in the end?
(L) ife seems not to think so,
(L) iving the way I do
(I) s it really all that wrong?
(T) o fight a feeling for this long
(V) engance will be mine I swear
(E) ven if all along I cared
(N) ow you've tipped the edge
(T) onight as I hang above my bed
(I) s it going to be enough to turn your head
(N) ow that I am dead
(G) uess not, you never saw your bad
(S) o guess what?
(I) am not mad
(N) ever have been
(C) ause I care too much
(E) ven now that I no longer breathe
(Y) ou still hate me
(O) ut of sight, can you see
(U) nderneath all the skin of me
(W) hat if I peeled it back for you
(O) nce just so you could look
(N) ever again
(T) ill you
(L) ook into the world that you shook
(I) 'm still here and ready to fight at your command
(S) till ready to move the dust, dirt and the sand
(T) his night might just be my last stand
(E) ven though I know
(N) ever again will I be yours

*But that's just my crying right?