I’m sinking
your sand washed up
on my veins

blended with my blood
we’re thicker than honey
but you never tasted sweet

never cared about my ocean
polluted by your sand
you consciously scattered
with your hands

There she is
Hidden behind the veins

She got lost
Searching but she forgot

Who was she doing this for?
A blood clot

Clot of mistakes
Clot of dates
All because she thought this clot was fate

Boy was she wrong
She bled out and drowned

All except her heart
That one was stayed shut with a clot

Tomorrow is not today
But I keep waking up to yesterday
My thoughts are borrowed
This really, really, really
looked like something that happened tomorrow

Once upon a time
                  I did love you
                            but that story ended

You’re a ghost
Haunting my thoughts
When I look back
You’re there

You’re a ghost
Haunting my nights
When I try to sleep
You’re there

You’re a ghost
Haunting my heart
When I try to love
You’re still there

Haunting the soul that let you go
This is my pain
Living on numbered days

Give me my sanity
The piece of me you took with you
You control my thoughts
The part of me that once spoke freely
Forget my routine
The fragment that allowed sleep

I let you go
You’ve come back to haunt me

I’ve decided
To feel this pain
The one I’ve put in a box
I’ve realized
Keeping this pain
Is keeping you
I will let go
Of all of you
Even the pain that keeps me