I remember
A time, forgotten,
Where i spent
Five years on her.

How could I have not
Seen the issue,
How did she
Captivate me so.

Learned my lesson
I have not, so,
She's my friend now
And she loves me so.

I remember
Talking daily
For years and years
I cried and cried.

I am drawn to love
Dynamic heart beats,
Of being torn
By those i love.

But, from that torture,
I learned a lesson.
If I persist,
I can make it gold.

Just like Janet,
Who's heart i broke,
She still my best friend,
And so shall you be.

I will remember
My dear, oh medicine.
Ananke, bless me so.
Inevitability,
Compulsive necessity,
May I remember
Her embrace.

Milk and honey,
Are the answers
I try to
Give myself.

May i *******
Bitter sweetness
My medicine
Is too far gone.

I know my poems
Will descend further
Into the dark
Recesses of my mind.

I will stay
The blade from striking.
May this match
Never come to light.

Do i have power?
Don't read this poem.
My lovely dove
My saving grace.

I don't want you
To know my sorrow.
I want to see
Your smile grace your face.

I want to watch your
Cheeks get reddened
Just like they did
Not long ago.

I want your embrace
I need your medicine
Oh Ambrosia,
Stay my hand.

I am not worthy
Of your love to me.
I am not worth
All your time.

I am nothing,
I feel so empty,
No one deserves
My sorrow.

I am so sorry.

For every time I hurt you..

For every cruel word I’ve ever said to you..

For not seeing what you needed most..

For not being kind to you as much as everyone else..

For every tear you have wasted..

For every time I stepped on your heart..

For every time I didn’t believe in you..

For every time I didn’t listen to you.

I am so sorry.

For ripping you apart..

For destroying the beautiful things in you..

For always making you pay the price..

And I apologise for all the wrongdoings I caused you!

Forgive this fallible human that is you.

I am so sorry.

Soft and tender
Is the Autumn.
Holy fire
Fills her skies.

The sheer power
of my old lover
Is apparent
In her waves.

You are still my joy
Until the end comes.
I say those two words
Because they're right.

Never forget me
I won't forget tou
Even if you've got to go
For a while.

I will be here
While Autumn's coming
And I shall
Be here for you.

I'll never leave you,
My Autumn Darling,
Even if your leaves
Weren't evergreen.