No cigarettes today
No cutting
No punching
Try to not cry.

No excuses
No hiding
If I am weak,
Go to her.

She won't be mad
I will be okay
And i will have bliss
To fight today

Dont mind me
When I make a promise
In your name.

I'd use God's
But I know, with yours,
I can stand by it easier

I'm going to try
And not focus on
Religion as much today.

I fell asleep
Before I could
Read the night away.

The promise i made
I will keep today
I will keep in every way.

I won't let my dreams,
Remaining dreams,
Be stamped out,
But I won't let them rule over me.

But my dreams keep me
Holding on
To the life that
Others find so dear.

Who do I have?
What do I have?
Am I truly alone?

When my friends dwindle
And I've got no one,
You're still there.

Even when everyone
Around me
Can betray me.

You're still there.

So am I ever truly alone?
No, never, you won't let me.
For this, I appreciate you most.

I miss church
But I woke up too late
And I dont know
If I can make it.

My heart hurts still
I don't know where to go
And I'm scared of the consequences.

I want peace
That truest peace
The bliss of the ages.

Will i make it to church?
I would druther see the color
In my best friend's hair

I understand what you mean
By not wanting me
To focus on you.

My first thoughts
When I rise
Are still centered on you.

I feel like I can breathe
Like my lungs are full of freedom.
My heart, still heavy, is lighter
And my mind is much less dark.

I am still not okay,
But i know that won't last.
I will look towards the best parts of life
And hold onto them.

The forests, the trees, the mountains and foggy mornings
The fresh air, ths dew drops, the evening most
Of rainy days.

The love of friend, memories and potential, all equally dear.