I've got a heart
Full of bad decisions.

I've got feelings
With poor intuitions

I've got pain
That could strike fear
In thunder in rain.

I've got a boat
All aboard my ship of sorrow,
I don't care if I sink tomorrow.  
I don't know where I'm sailing
Looks on course for a river of  failing.

Tears of solitude, sinking my boat.
Swallowed pride, lump in throat.

Scarlet moon, illuminate my soul.
Starlight paths, make me  whole.

oh my angels I see you  clip your wings and die.
Everything  they taught you  in school was naught but a lie.

Cry, cry, cry

Low-Hanging Tree
Part III


Dream of the hills,
And picture the mountain.
I see the sun born,
Making way through the storm.
The winds blow against me,
Rain lands on my face.
The grass is now dreary,
My travel remains.

Day after day, year after year
She tries to forget..
But remembers with each tear
The way he made her feel, and helped her deal
With the abuse, neglect, and sorrow
He was the one who stayed, her tomorrow.
Lost in the dark, he was her light
He made things alright
All lost in one tragic night
Gun shot to the chest, he saved her life.
To love someone in that way.. Words can't express it.
Nothing more to say.

darling, if you knew
how i shape the sea for you
and my mind is infected
with thoughts of depth so great
i'm diving and never coming back
you make me mad
oh, if you knew
how i'm addicted to you
and the thought of my tenderness
whenever you invade my head
you're this odd sickness
because you only make me feel ill
when you leave

i won't beg for your attention
but i will seek love
whether it is from you
or whether it isn't.
i won't spend every waking moment drowning in my sad thoughts.
if I can seek love, I will.
whether it is from
a blade,
a drink,
a smoke,
a person,
or God.
i intend on being happy.

he wonders why she doesn't talk anymore
he doesn't understand

she wonders how he could be so oblivious
she doesn't understand how no one can see the pain

he wishes she would just say one word
he wants her to be okay

she wishes she never said anything at all
she just wants to be invisible

he waits
she waits

in the end its the teardrops and shaky hands
they say it all
and he realizes he couldn't be more invisible
and she realizes she couldn't be more in the spotlight

and that's why they say they were meant to be

I should have known
that every smile,
every laugh,
and every joke
was just some false representation.

I should have known
that when you looked at me
it was just a simple, and brief
desire.

I should have known
that I was not someone
who could experience lust
in the way that those
other girls did.  

I should have known
I was only temporary
that even though for those
few moments
when we were inseparable
in the end, for you,
it was like it never happened.  

I should have known
that as soon as
someone better,
someone prettier,
someone more worthwhile
came along,
I would be forgotten.

now I know..

shackled away
are the true emotions
all the sad,
drunken realities
of the stories untold.