i draw with silver
lines, x's and spots
under a sleeve
so i never get caught

my canvas is my skin
and so with the blade i drag
across my peach paper
so they won't be mad

i'm sorry, mom
i'm sorry, dad
i'll never be the son you wanted to have
perfect grades,
happy and smart

i'm so sorry...
i'm sorry i have to tear us apart

The most beautiful flower will wither away!
But you my beloved, even in death your smile still lingers in my heart.
And your dazzling eyes still daunt me in my sleep!.

I’ve never felt so seen,  
I’ve never felt so bare.  
Yet this is the feeling  
I’ve longed for everywhere.  
You make me feel I matter,  
That I’m worthy of love,  
Deserving of attention,  
You make my spirit glow.  
My smile shines because of you,  
Your care brings light to me.  
The ways you show your love, so true,  
In countless forms I see.  
I ache to spend my days with you,  
More moments by your side.  
I don’t feel I deserve this love,  
Yet I’m grateful for its tide.  
It’s not your task to guard my heart  
Or watch me day and night,  
But baby, I’m so glad you’re mine,  
My sweet guy, my delight.

like a car crash,
explosions fill
my head

emotional wreckage—
thoughts tangled
in dread

am i the problem?
or are they
projecting
instead?

i let go
of the wheel

just to
feel something—

go off the rails,
’cause sanity
feels surreal.

am i the problem?
or just
trapped in
my head?

because dealing
with this

is harder
than i ever
imagined.

Do you ever just ponder
And wonder of life
The splender of nature
Of wildlife?

love me in the crowded room
where no one is watching
watch me dance among the stars
and bellow at the wind

let me sing my worries
and whisper my joys

love me like you love the falling leaves
with your hands tucked in your pockets
before jumping in with everything

love me like you aren’t afraid
in a crowded room
for someone to see you