Indra

Indra Jun 2019

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the seroquel isn’t working this evening,
the effects of the lithium finally waned.
as I lay awake,
anxiety plummeting through every vein,
breathing going in & out,
halting at the moments needed most,
I dream of you.
missing the moments where’d you touch me in ways no mortal soul could,
how easily you could rejuvenate a lifeless girl in a troubled world,
the way you’d release the trepidation from an overworked mind.
I can’t help but weep,
for the destruction you brought is more than I could bear,
but **** it, what do I even care?

heartache, not for a person, but for the drug.

Indra Jan 2019

reach for me

Travesty reeks these hollow halls,
Death lingers in my heart,
Oblivion in my eyes,
Why is it no one hears my silent cries?

Indra Jan 2019

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My soul burst through the atmosphere,
Finally facing that ridiculous fear,
Answering the questions,
Immersed in Kant’s Critique of Reasons.
Obliterating through tricky paths,
Reiterating the reality of what I believe to be within principle,
& yet as I ponder during my journey,
I wonder about how will I determine what principles really mean to me?
The thoughts taunt me,
The drugs drowning out the racing wonders.
I finally sit back,
Calming down from the oxy high,
Breathing,
Reaching for the blunt to my left,
I’ll worry on such ordeals more tomorrow.

My mind is in an odd place, perhaps the drugs. Who knows. Yet I embrace the subconscious inspiration.

Indra Jan 2019

That Dance

My demons have emerged.
They’re prepared full throttle,
The thirst to devour my soul,
The salivation dripping from their lips,
The scent of death upon their skin,
Hell’s darkness occupied in their eyes.
I could run,
Yet I’m exhausted of this same dance.
I stand, tormented with the lashes of their hate,
And with each tear of flesh,
I see them in me,
I see the loathing and emptiness in my soul,
The hollow within my own eye.
Do I dare fight anymore?
What’s the point of it anymore?

Indra Dec 2018

Silent Cries

Nothing can truly describe the misfortune of a love lost.
As if hell itself unleashed its worst parasite unto my soul,
Draining me of any remaining light.
That brutal ache brings forth an uncommon demon,
Baring its decaying hands of treachery,
It alters sunshine to utter dark,
Thunder & lighting becoming an unlikely comfort.
The tears which sting my eyes in the face of this defeat,
Offers more trouble than relief.
A newfound sorrow,
Kills this soul ever so quietly but with shattering blows.
Laughter ceased,
Life without you seems far from bearable,
And somehow, I’m still breathing.

Trying to free the pain.

Oct 2018

Sea's End

Meaning

When two poets love,
Words start to hang in the air
And lose their meaning.

Another haiku? Wow! I'm only so good with words until I actually need to use them. Just ask my girl. (Spoiler alert: I'm really bad at articulating my thoughts in the heat of the moment. That's why I'm here.)

#poets #love #meaning #words #haiku

Indra Oct 2018

Collide

My soul salivates for fulfillment,
Ailing for that forbidden touch.
A sort of hunger grumbling at the mind,
A serenade which has since revealed itself to be a trance.
As our universes collide,
Two find worlds untouched,
Looming suspense,
Journeys down paths distant from domestic lands,
No evidence of the truth,
Could drive this girl to suicide.
For it doesn’t all end with the unexplored,
But with this mirror before my eye,
The reflection glowering in this direction,
Deprectiates the torture of the bitter loneliness,
The demons of this land finally mutilated.