You are as transparent as cement.

in my dream of spirals
we meet on the stairs
at the shoulder of the world

may i? i ask as i gather you in my arms;
in our cloak of words
our filigreed cocoon of thought

here, in our dawn of skin
we shine softly

and spill from a thousand kisses

through an open window

She was an unlit candle
in the middle of a forest fire
She stood motionless,
deafened with silence
With her jaws locked and fists clenched,
She heard herself whisper to nothingness,
cursed names with empty threats
As anger and sorrow and disbelief consumed her
She quavered with her knees on the ground
Nobody  can  save  her
She was helpless
She was renounced

I've been writing our initials
on every coin i throw into the wishing well
I've been painting your hazel eyes
on every sheet of gold and linen
I've been driving at 1am
on the same road we first met
I've been tracing the burnt marks
you left on my chest
I've been biting my lips
with the hope of tasting you again


You  are  a  (hard)  bad  habit  to  *break­

If life were an ocean,
you would be a whale,
and I would be glass.

I miss you. I miss you so ******* much.
I miss our adventures. I miss talking about growing up
and what tattoos we're gunna get together.
I miss when drugs and girls didn't come between us.
I miss when I was your favorite person in the world.
I miss when all I needed to do was tell you I was hurting or that I needed you and you'd be there in a second.
I miss you. I just really ******* miss you okay.
but then it comes to my attention that when I needed you in hardest and scariest time, you were no where to be found.
I was laying there. Looking into the light of goodbyes.
I was ready. Ready to let go of life, and I needed you there.
To stop me, to love me, to help me.
And that has been eating me alive every ******* day.
But I eventually got over it and now I'm just this heartless and careless girl that only worries about who's under her roof and what's for dinner.
I've been ****** over and left so many times,
I just never expected you to be apart of that list.
I never expected your absence to hurt this bad I just wish the last day we spent together didn't **** so ******* bad.
Because now every time I think back,
I can only see how ****** you were, I guess that's apart of life and what not. Losing and meeting knew people everyday.
Just know I'll always love you,
even when you didn't love me.