I may or may not have
Something growing inside me
And I’m struggling to decide
If i want there to be
Scared and confused
I just wish I knew
A rolacoaster of pain and happiness
If it’s positive
I’m keeping the baby
But negative would cause relief
The stress from this thinking
Is getting to me. I’d be happy with
Him in there. See i’m hoping for a boy
But what happens with school and my future
The tears that cover this page are of stress not sadness.
And even if i am pregnant
My baby was never a mistake.

Dreams arise like the sun on the horizon;
Tranquil memories only to be forgotten.
Cast ashore with no way to survive;
I’m stuck in the middle not dead or alive.
Reaching for the stars only to fail;
I’m so white that I can no longer be called pale.
Colorless as a ghost with skin as cold as ice;
My own mother can’t even look me in the eyes.
The feeling of disappointment deep within my soul;
Knowing I have to eventually let go.
Forgive and forget they always say;
If I had one wish it’d be to stay.
As time starts to run thin;
The heart monitor beebs and the tears begin.
Watching my mother cry is something I’ll never forget;
Leaving her in this world alone will be my only regret.
As Death comes to greet me I must leave behind;
The life that once was known as mine.

My love my life my star
Dear that’s what you are
I love you so much
I’ll never let go
Things from the past are forgiven
You are mine now and thats all that matters
To think of what I’d give
To be in your arms forever
I’d never let you go
I’d hold on so very tight
Things I wanna do with you
Along with your memory run through my mind
I love you my star
Forever and always