Today my life stopped
... yet the world moved on regardless

Promises
Made at a whim
Easily forgotten
Quickly broken

Oh thee
Running around in glee
On a spending spree
For gifts and the perfect tree
Glutton food for the family

All set
For Christmas is the event
Everything you need under your belt
Awaiting family last year you met
Till that one day a year is spent
And next year start it all again

But hey
What of the rest of the years days?
Paying for your indulgent ways
You trying to keep your debts at bay
To the very lord you pray
Have a wonderful Christmas day.

Promises should be set in stone
Not whispered in the wind to be blown
.... to a place where they cannot be reached

Some people want the pain to go away
I want the pain to stay
To feel nothing means we no longer care
So I want the pain to always be there

Step into the water
Cold and still
Wade in my friend
Feel the chill
Cleanse the world
That contaminated you
Your once innocent eyes.. your unbiased views

Step into the water
Pure and deep
Let it remove the memories
That made you weep
Let it soothe his once loving touch
Remove the memories
You cherished so much.

Even beautiful memories need to be forgotten.

In loving you

.... I lost myself.

Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
Tic....

Unable to breath
In this darkness called night
Blackness above and beneath
I seek the light

Unable to sleep
I see nothing with eyes wide shut
Night terrors seep
Too frozen to get up

Unable to dream
Sooth my pain with your face
Instead I can't believe
I am in a lonely place

Unable to move on
As memories flood my soul
But accepting that your gone
I am alone

Never mind... tomorrow is a new day  x

Look at the reality
Losing our scerenity
To those without integrity
Doomed is humanity
With their insanity
Hatred and obsenities
Marking their territories
The innocent in morturies
Caught up in tragedy

When will we learn?

Forgive and forget
Take forward love, leave behind hate
Don't caste up what has gone
Otherwise no point in going on
That line you leave behind
Don't go back, and it will be fine
Life aint perfect
Don't let others try to break
Your love and life is at stake.

When you're lost for words
When you cannot find yourself

He took the light out of her eyes
And replaced them with opac orbs
He took the laughter from her smiles
And replaced them with sobs

He took the strength from her will
And replaced it with empty hole
He took her risk for a thrill
And left her with an empty soul

The art of breathing
Is remembering you are alive

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder
But may I take a step bolder
And say
some see the beauty in ugly
Some see the ugly in beauty
But what is beauty? What is ugly?
Do we have an opinion to say?

That moment you feel your heart break
Knowing your life will never be the same

Catch me before I fall
Till I am no more
Broken pieces on the floor
As if I was never born

Catch me and hold me tight
When I want to give up this fight
To go left or right
I have lost all sight

Catch me I feel so weak
Of failure I reek
From bold to meek
Myself I seek

Catch me and I promise you
I will stand up on my own two
And one day when you are blue
I will be there to catch you too

And every day that chain on my ankle gets weaker
And every day the rope round my neck gets looser
And every day the blindfold over my eyes gets lighter
The day will come when life will taste sweeter

If you test someone's loyalty
By keep pushing them away
They will eventually leave
And you will have passed your test

Congrats.

I wanted to go
Talons inviting me so
Claws grabbing my very soul
Tired of this world

From darkness came light
A hand that grabbed me tight
Pulled me from this plight
With all your loving might

Before I drowned in blackness
Before I fell into the abyss
With your tender loving kiss
You saved me from my self

.. and made me feel wanted again....

Every time I found a piece of me
You lost a piece of you

With one silent tear
A million words were spoken
But they all refused to hear
Just how much she was broken

Sorrow
When the light leaves your souless eyes
Sorrow
When the darkness swallows your inner cries
Sorrow
When your tears fill oceans far and wide
Sorrow
When from the world you wish to hide
Sorrow
When you feel your heart smash and break
Sorrow
When your own life you would gladly forsake

Just had a deja vue
Scares me right through
That twist in my gut
The feeling that
Something bad is coming
And I can't
Avoid it

I want pizza
Oh mama mia
Any topping
Would be awesome

Pizza and chips
The moon eclipse
No that's my ***
I have no class

No knife n fork
Takes too long
Pick it up
Stuff in gob

Pizza n chips... and a diet coke!

Mary had a little lamb
It's fleece was white as snow
But Mary was a greedy maam
And killed the lamb for doe
She took the money she now had
Awash with blinded insanity
Oh! Mary you didn't just **** a lamb
You killed the whole of humanity
Fool!

Every now and again
I allow myself to think of you
I forget myself
And a life we once knew

But all that is gone by
A life full of dreams
I still remember and cry
Of what could have been

He tried to break your spirit

In the end... he lost his.

I would rather feel hate
Than feel nothing at all
In an emotional state
Not an empty vessel

Today I voted

One ugly over another

That was the hopeless choice

The scars we carry is our legacy of love
The deeper they are, the more we felt hurt

Can I be found again?
Where I was once lost?

If you forgive their mistakes
It proves you love them
If you forgive them for your heartbreaks
It proves you don't love yourself

One day we will become dust
Particles embedded in the earth
Combined, ground and crushed
In millions of years we won't be ourself

Maybe then I will be someones diamond

Forever is a word that does not exist
Nothing lasts forever.... does it?

Sometimes the purist souls
Are the ones who always get hurt


Stay strong A.M. ❤

When tears fall silently
Like distant rains in a sea of sorrow
Drowning in dispair

Once I was your wife
I was your future
Now in your life
I feel like an Intruder

When the darkness consumes
And you seek the light
Look inside yourself
The spark will ignite
And you will get through it...

Every memory that makes you cry
Proves you lived before you die
Each tear that falls with a memory
Will live with you for your eternity

My inner screams echo through my empty heart
Bouncing around no end no start
Will this deafening sound ever end
I guess it will when I'm finally dead.

Every tear I shed is like million drops of rain
Every painful sigh, screams only your name
Every memory of you, I relive again and again
Every second without you is unbareable pain

❤Mum❤

You came
You broke
You left

Why do I still care?

How can you trust
When those who should protect you
Misplace it?

How can you trust
When you put your faith in the palms of their hands?

How can you trust
When they shattered your dreams?

How can you trust
When they broke your heart leaving shards of pieces that no longer fit?

How can you trust
When your body is on the floor and you cannot get up?

How can you trust
When you no longer trust yourself?

I used to walk to your home
It took me an hour and a half
But I didn't mind, mom
Was worth it to hear you laugh

Every day come rain or shine
I was by your side
You were my light sublime
You were my guide

But then you had to go away
And leave me behind
The pain I feel every day
You are always on my mind

So now I walk a lonely road
In my heart you are safe
With heavy feet and an empty soul
I bring flowers to your grave

Being left behind
When your love is moving foward
Is not a sign
For your life to be over

As you ponder on broken promises
A future together
You gave complete honesty
And life forever

But some things are never to be
So my friends let me share
You are valueable, you see
Remember that and begin to repair

Walk with me by my side
Lets just laugh and love and talk
Life will never come in a straight line
But hand in hand we will walk

Take each day as it comes
As if it were our last
Time just seems to run
And life passes so fast

Have you put on weight?
(I'm fat!)
Your eyebrows aint straight
(Oh drat!)
What are you wearing?
(I'm a mess)
Your hair is wavy!
(Birds nest)
Your teeth are crooked
(Can't smile)
Your nose is hooked
(Sh*te!!!)
Your nails are cracked
(Please stop)
Your face looks smacked
(I can't cope)
Your ears are too big
(I wanna cry)
I'm only kidding hahaha
(I wanna die)

The thought of you
Twisted round my head
Like the roots of a tree
All dishevelled and dead

So I thought about cake

... and cake makes things better.

Out of the ashes
Of broken promises
Where the pieces of hearts
Lay glittering like glass
Where dispair
Hides in its lair
To engulf your spirit
Don't let it

Out of the blackness
From utter darkness
You will let that inner light
Shine bright
It is the fire within
Pure without sin
That will make you strong
My dear, you will carry on

You are f*cking fabulous!