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AK93 Nov 2017
Could you ever imagine, thinking of a future where you did not exist?
AK93 Nov 2017
Maybe this is it
Maybe this is the end result of cancer
Or perhaps its the price i pay for my platitudes and piously proclaimed prideful professions
In guilt i am swallowed whole by the taste i wish to savor, those who know solution, that should save anyone other than those who place praise in the credence to which we are born able and in place of.
Aquarium where you try to swim
Too full of liquid
Not enough air to breathe
None but the unconscious would even dare
AK93 Oct 2017
Today when i woke up
I saw a man hanging in the mirror on my wall
He lifted his head up and said to me
Did you ever stop to think about what it means to live a life
He asked if ive ever considered what could make me take me own
Then he motioned to the bed where i was lying and he said
I dont think you have a clue about how cruel our desires can be
Ive spent my life watching as you take from others selfishly
All the while you say your piece about why you think you deserve it
And you create your excuses for why its was ok to hurt them
Im leaving today and im not coming back
So when you finally gain the courage to look for yourself
Youll find the same emptiness that youve always been running from
Youll see nothing but the man in the mirror who cares for no one but himself
AK93 Oct 2017
What the **** is going on in your head
Your idea of life is my idea of death
What the **** did I do to you
Why the **** did I ever love you
Do you really think that this is best
You push down and put my will to the test
Everywhere I go all I see is ****
All I wanna do is find someone to hit
leave me alone
You left me home
You said you'd you'd return but you left me to burn
Do you really think you'll find a better man
Nobody else will ever love you the way I can
Self abuse
Life without use
You were the oxygen in my every breath
Now I'm ******* down poison hoping for death
I hope your heart is ******* broke
You made me regret every word I spoke
You told me that I needed help
But all you did was watch as I lost myself
You said you loved me but it must have been a lie
If a single word was true you wouldn't leave me to die
Everything I say
Everything I do
I'm done wasting all my time on you
I'm ready to learn how to embrace hate
I'm ready to stop caring about my fate
I ******* hate you for what you make me feel
You can't love me for what makes me real
I close my eyes
All I see is your face
I close my heart
All I feel is hate
AK93 Oct 2017
Pit
I should really stop digging this hole, right?
I mean, what do I have to gain by going any deeper?
And I've been at it long enough I'd say, because I see nearly three irreplaceable years that so quickly slipped away
  Oct 2017 AK93
Aiden
An eraser
goes through its life
caring about all the tiny details
but not about itself.
it degrades itself trying
to fix others mistakes
until suddenly
it’s gone.

it knows it’s dying,
it know it,
and it doesn’t care.
it cares too much about other people
to care about itself.

Some people say an eraser
would be a model human.
i don’t.

If everyone was like an eraser,
if everyone cared about others
just a little too much,
how would life work?

People would degrade
just like the eraser,
not caring
about themselves.

an eraser plays an important role in art.
so it does.
you can care about other people,
but don't
not care about yourself.
do not be an eraser,
you need loved too.
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