This is the new me,
a withered peony
With lifeless eyes,
Dampened with lies
This is the new me

The saddest goodbyes
are not the ones that are said
but are left untold

I feel like nothing
Physically, I'm living
But I'm not alive

We went through so much back then,
to be nothing again.
All the way from the beginning,
we were nothing till the end.

"You broke my expectations,
now my thought's all a mess
I saw what you're in reality,
can't believe i was obsessed"

"All those years, what a waste
Guess I just got bad taste"

"Buried alive, can't cry, why, my life is such a lie"

"I thought you'd make me smile forever
But my forever got an end
You used to give me so much hope,
now i'm someone you can't mend."

Hey, is that what you think?
Sorry for the torturing

Gave it a try, can't meet your eye, wish I could just call you mine

I took my friends for granted,
didn't feel your worth before
But now in isolation,
I want you even more

You gave me more than thrice a chance,
now won't you give a second glance

It got cold, the life we rode, our story untold.

I'm just a person,
with high expectations y'know?
I'm not really happy,
though it appears so

I do a lot for others,
thinking they'd do the same for me
but i guess im just hurtin'
by my own fantasies

Or is it just me
tryna potray a good girl?
Oh my god, what am i thinking...
my mind's such a blur

Am i actually selfish?
Using people for my advantage?
I don't really look like that, right?
Maybe, it's just my cunning language

Or am i just the overthinker,
pondering a lil' too much?
'Bout people's opinion on me,
pros 'n cons 'n such

Wait... what if im actually selfless,
and an understanding person?
Always doin' right,
following values and lessons

If I have ever hurt you,
I truly am sorry
But has anyone ever apologised
for my never-ending story?

My never-ending story,
of loneliness and pain?
Maybe I just deserve it
for driving you insane

In this world, where life's a stage,
Behind every smile,
is not a happy role
Smiles radiate warmth,
mine got cold

But I guess i'll take a breather,
its a chapter, not the whole
Just a little longer,
mind, body and soul.

Dear wonderful person, I'll leave you now,
I'll leave it all up to another dove,
who'll pick you up from where you fell,
and pull you out from your walking hell.
If you ever need me, I'll be right here,
faraway, but also near.
Don't worry, you'll soon be found.
Until then, stay safe and sound.