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emmie May 2021
it's too bright,
emmie Dec 2021
What makes love?
   love can't be built, but it can be found.
Well then how do you find it?
   by not trying to look for it.
emmie May 2021

Something I loved deeply,
but lost deeper.
emmie Sep 2021
and for the first time,
she was at peace
emmie May 2021
and in that moment
she knew she would never see him again
would never hold his hand
hear his voice
or kiss his lips

in that moment,
she broke.
emmie May 2021
you are my never showing sunshine
emmie Jul 2021
Help me find
an escape

I need
a reason to live
a reason to love

Help me escape from
my anxiety
the pain
the guilt
the sorrow
the judgment
the everything

let me live
without being present

and let me die
without the heartbreak.
emmie Jul 2021
why is everything longer now that I don't have you next to me?
<3 Em,
         forever & always
emmie Feb 2022
I was drinking smoking till I die
I spent my days thinking, am I just a child?
Leading a life that was just a lie
emmie Sep 2021
"why is love such a crazy thing?"

"i don't know, darling."

- an exchange between two lovers.
emmie May 2021
im sorry i broke your heart.
emmie Aug 2021
where the hell are you when i need you the most?
emmie Apr 2021
you say you love me, and then you don't talk to me for months. you say you care about me, so why haven't you checked in on me?

| you're a liar |
emmie Apr 2021
you say you love me yet you make me cry. you say you want to make me feel safe and welcomed at your house yet you dont do anyting to make a change. you say you want to spend time with me yet you dont make plans. you say that me and my sister come before everything else yet you would rather work or be with your girlfriend.

love your heartbroken daughter
emmie Aug 2021

When'd you forget about me? When did I become a ghost to you?

I loved you every second of every day, even after we broke up. I still cry over you, and I still miss you. And I can't help but to think that you are perfectly okay and happy without me, but with your new girlfriend. Do you two love each other like we did? Do you love her more than you loved me? Or is she just a rebound? What's gonna happen during the summer? Are you going to go to the places you went with me? Is she going to stay on your left or right side? Because as far as I know, I was the only one to always hold your right hand and stay on your right side.

I still dream of driving to the Red Granite Quarry with you. One hand on the wheel and the other holding my hand. We have all the windows down and are blasting our favorite music. I dream of all the things we used to do, even if it was as simple as laying in the road in the middle of the night to stare at the stars.

I guess that's all I have to say for now. If I ever send you a letter, I'll add in a piece of your favorite gum.

                 <3 Emma
       sent with love, always and forever
Another letter to my ex that I'll never send. I've been seeing him at our marching band rehearsals, and it's been killing me. I don't know what to do. So many people tell to ignore him and just stay away, but that hasn't helped at all. Let me know what you guys think. Sorry for the long post :(
emmie May 2021
Healing is a process
in which one must live
through the pain

Even on the darkest days
they must find a light
to guide them

Healing is a process
in which one must forget
the bad times
and the good times

One must learn from those

You have to hide away
the pain and the guilt

Stuff the memories
and gifts
and pictures
and keepsakes

In a box
under your bed
or in the back of your closet

I pushed away those feelings
and the memories of him
of us
and replaced it with the love from and for
my friends
and myself

I will love myself more
than you had ever loved me

I will be strong
for those who are still weak

and when someone brings you up
I'll say

"Oh yeah, I know him. He used to be a friend of mine."

But now he's a memory

Now he's a stranger

From which I must heal.
emmie Apr 2021
Dear Mike,

Do you still love me? Because when you said you wouldn't have enough time for a relationship, and that it was unfair to me, I believed you. It was difficult as first, but I started to move on, and get better. I was happy and felt as if I could handle a relationship. But then I found out that you had a new girlfriend. And it broke me. I was upset, confused, and sad. I didn't understand how you could make time for her but not for me. I thought to myself, "Why am I not good enough? How and why is she better than me?" And then I found out that she wrote a book, and that hurt even more, because you know that I write.

And the more I think about it, the more I realize that the breakup was one-sided. You broke up with me, and I convinced myself that it was mutual. So now I'm sitting here thinkng, was she one of the reasons we broke up? Did you not want to be with me anymore? And Mike, did you ever try to reach out to me? Because I don't think you did. At least, it doesn't feel like you did. And what hurts even more is that I still love you. And if you asked me to be your girlfriend, I would say yes without any hesitation. I didn't get any closure, and so far, all it's done is hurt me. I still keep the polaroids in a box under my bed, along with everthing else that I wrote for/about you, and the matching anklet. Do you still wear yours? Or did you throw it away when you started dating her? Do you still keep out the painting that I made for you? Do you wish deep down that you still had a picture of us together?

Or do you regret dating me? Do you regret loving me? When did you move on? Was it easy? Or did you cry yourself to sleep most nights? Is she a rebound, or do you really love her? Did you talk about your future together like you did with me? What about the wedding, or baby names, or where you two would live? Did you talk about college with her, and how you would stick together through it all? Because I know that we talked about all of those things. I remember all of those conversations. I remember when I got a panic attack and we went on a walk in the middle of the night and played with lego figurines and ate goldfish and slept on your trampoline. I remember when I would start crying and you would just hold me. I remember how deeply in love we were. Do you?

I'm thinking about publishing my poetry, by the way.

Love, Em
emmie Jul 2021
It's gotten to the point where I can barely write. I broke when I saw you at that first rehearsal. I couldn't handle it. I still haven't recovered.
emmie Apr 2021
Once upon a time, the good guy lost. Overtook with silence, dispair, and defeat. Evil looked Good in the eyes and said, "No, not this time." Evil walked away, leaving Good to dry in the sun. Jack, you lying son of a b*tch. You may have won this battle, but wars don't end there. Watch out, cause I'm stronger than ever and filled with confidence and willpower that you cannot take away. So, Evil may have won in chapter 3 of this tale, but darling, there are so many pages left .
emmie Apr 2021
He said that he would catch her
Come, he said
I’ll catch you

So she jumped
But he saw another
And left her to break

He said he would
Break my fall,
He lied, and I died.
emmie May 2021
his eyes
burn into her's
yet she does not look back
because if she does,
her heart,
will break once again.
emmie Apr 2021
It’s Christmas Eve,
and I’m ignoring my family
because it doesn’t feel right
to be out there
nothing feels right

I brush my fingers
through my hair,
trying to think
of what to write

Because right now,
I would rather be
with my friends for Christmas
but that’s just me

And this poem
may be bad,
but that’s just because,
there’s no inspiration
in my head
and I want
to go to bed;

So goodnight to all,
and to all a good night.
emmie Apr 2021
red cheeks
brown hair
with pretty blue eyes
and a skinny waist
and good grades.
but cold.
she shines as bright as the sun
to hide the fact that her body
is below freezing
below water
below ice
she tries to breath
to scream
to fight.
limbs wrap around her
pulling at
her hair
her arms
the deep depth in which
every memory lies
is tangled
still think you know her?
try again.
look in the mirror
tell me who you see
or, don't see.
blue cheeks
icy hair
with grey eyes
and a skeleton body
and who gives a f*ck?
cause you sure don't.
emmie Apr 2021
I’m not afraid
of your darkness

But I am
afraid of
emmie Apr 2021
I search for you
in the shadows of the trees
and under the light of the stars

illuminated by the street lamps
is a heart on the pavement

in pieces

I search for you
night after night

Even though
I knew you won't be there.

But still,
I expect to see you
sitting on the hill,
longing for my touch.

Every day without you
is a day I wish not to live

I can't breath
when you are gone

I cry at night,
under the covers in which we laid

I search for your body next to me,
only to find the cold sheets,
thrown away from me,
like you had gotten up,
and never returned.

What lies in your head, my love?
is it
or have you forgotten,
the way I loved you?

And the way you loved me more.
come home, darling,
and rest your heavy heart,
on my shoulder.

Tuesday, 4/20/21 @ 8:21pm
On Wednesday, 4/21/21, I found out that my most recent ex has a new girlfriend. He hasn't talked to me since we broke up. Other people already knew, and I felt like I was the last one to find out. After that, I couldn't stop crying. I cried all through second period. I was able to get a ride home before third period, and yet, I'm still crying. Did he really love me, or was it all fake?
emmie Apr 2021
Not telling me you care
Not responding
Not asking me if i’m okay
Never being the first one to talk
Not saying anything when I text you at night
Making me feel worthless
Making me hate my life
Making me sad
Making me feel like I care about you and like you more than you care about me and like me
Making me feel like it was my fault
Being the highlight and the lowlight of my day
Letting me down
Making me feel left out
Making me cry myself to sleep
emmie Apr 2021
I loved you
because you made me feel,
after being numb
for so long.
emmie May 2021
let me into
your heart
its beating
is unnatural

let me fix it
with my tinkering tools,
and super glue

your heart will be
as good as new,
because i have given my heart
to you

but it looks as though,
you have broken mine too

you return to me
me heart in pieces
i have learned
cannot be fixed
no matter how strong the glue,
of love is.
emmie Apr 2021
What does heartbreak feel like,
you ask

it feels like some is ripping you heart,
out of your chest
it feels like dying,
from the inside out

becomes your best friend
and nobody else can make you feel better.
emmie Dec 2021
i saw him today,
walking by

i wanted to call his name,
or for him to look over
across the street,
and see me

i think i miss him,
but maybe not

after all,
you can’t erase feelings

you can’t erase love

i wonder if he misses me,
probably not

but i can’t go back,
i just

emmie Apr 2021
You always say that you have to go… but is it just that you don’t want to talk to me over text anymore? because … i gtg, bye
emmie Apr 2021
I did not leave you to f*ck him,
I left you because I wasn't happy
I left you because you never made time for me
I left you because you said I was too clingy
I left you because you didn't appreciate me
I left you because you never texted back
I left you because you made me feel worthless

And now that I've left you,
You say that I sent nudes to other guys while we were together
You say that I lied to you
You say that I cheated
You say that I have nothing in common with you
You say that I am a *****
You say that I made a mistake that ****** you off

after we broke up.
emmie Apr 2021
I thought,
getting rid of
everything with you in it
and not having to see it
would make it
easier to forget you

but it didn’t
it made it harder
I need to talk to you,
ask you questions,
but I can’t
because my phone
has no memory of
But I do.

I thought I knew
your phone number by heart
and maybe your social media name,
was engraved below your number

but it isn’t
because my mind
did everything it could
to erase you

I thought I could forget you,
but I can’t.
emmie Apr 2021
hurts the most
when you’re all alone at night,
with nobody
by your side.
emmie Apr 2021
What happes when we die?
Where do our minds go?
Do they wander through our skull?
or just shut down once they enter the coffin?
emmie Dec 2021
I feel like I can’t write
like i’m nothing

i’m always tired
always needing
or longing

for comfort
or love

is it a relapse?
maybe i’m just lonely…

it’s probably a relapse
emmie Jun 2021
Roses flood in the stream
As he brushes his hands
Over the water

His eyes are plastered in her mind
As she watches a smile
Soften his face

They used to dream of each other
Of meeting and touching and hearing

And now that they have that,
They are so deeply in love.
emmie Apr 2021
The sand I say,
is hard to hold
just like the stars

They are plentiful,
but picking just one
and keeping it
is hard

Somebody may have already
chosen that one
and lost it,
just as you will

So enjoy laying in the sand,
looking up at the stars,
as they will not last forever.
emmie Apr 2021
Someone I decided to love
He was a mistake
That I would make time and time
He stripped me of my pain,
And dressed me in that warm fuzzy feeling.
He drenched sunlight on me,
As if he believed I was worthy of it.
He showed me so many things,
And then nothing.

Someone I decided to love
Gave me a pretty box with a bow
yet it was empty.
"You want to give me emptiness?"
"Yes, my love, that's what I have left."
He brought tears to my eyes.

Someone I decided to love,
Is now a stranger in the hall.
emmie May 2021
She caught his staring
again, and again
but he doesn't
stop staring,
because he wants to come back,
but she won't let him
and that breaks her,
more than it breaks him.
emmie May 2021
The man lives such a life,
that the sun is his wife

He sits on the stair,
watching as she brushed
love through her hair

The trees whisper of her beauty,
and the wind heads echos of her voice

Chills run through the grass,
for summer has taken its mass.
emmie Apr 2021
We lay here for hours,
Limbs tangled

The hunger to be closer eats away at our hearts
Every night is a surrender to the moon,
We take shelter under the stars
From the monsters down the hall

I lay here for days,
Body cold

The pain of the heartbreak rips at the eyes
Tears stream down my face,
I hide under the covers
From the evil in my head.
emmie Apr 2021
My cheek is streaked
with tears,
and my heart
is full of fears,
that you will not return.
emmie Apr 2021
I stand in the rain
my boots getting wet,
waiting for you,
for it to stop,
but then I realize,
that it's my own teras
that are falling to the ground.
emmie Apr 2021
I'm drowning,
in my own tears
but you,
are walking on them.
emmie Apr 2021
My chest is burning,
My heart is racing,
My hands are shaking,
My mind is exploding

The pain,
Is back

The familiar choking,
Like a ghost has its hands wrapped around my throat

The non stop sweating,
Like the whole world is on fire, just for me

The throbbing in my head,
And the pounding of my heart,
Like a drum beating inside of my body

Does it ever stop?

The answer,
I’m afraid

Is no.
This poem is about my struggle with anxiety, and constantly having panic attacks. Me and my mom thought that it was just heart burn, but then I was diagnosed with severe anxiety.
emmie Apr 2021
Through all this noise and color,
I’m the only one
who is silent
and faded

My skin shows up black and white,
like and old, forgotten tv show

Although I am not old,
I am forgotten
I am passed, by the ones who
loved me
cared about me
laughed with me

but most importantly,
by you

The zoo,
is no place
for someone who is forgotten
or someone who is old news

The zoo you said,
is not a place
for someone as dull
As you.
emmie Sep 2021
What time is it? I don't even know
Lemme just think so you won't let go
Take another drag
'nother hit
never quit
your love is like a drug & I'm addicted

Cause that nic is a tik & a tok
of a clock
so lemme rewind like the sound when you ****
the bullet
the gun
my ***

I'm sorry but I'm not yet done
when you say that you love me
do you really mean it?

Cause this sounds like a movie and I've already seen it.
This is a song I started (more of a rap genre). I haven't had any experience with this, so if you have any suggestions or comments, let me know!
emmie Jun 2021
you were trying
to come back
but you missed
your chance
emmie Apr 2021
A stranger
A crush
A friend
A lover
My lover
My heartbreak
My man not in the mirror
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