when will i be good enough
will i be good enough when i get straight a's
or when i graduate at the top of my class
or when i have a job
or when i have lots of friends
or when i dont make mistakes
or when i get enough sleep
or when i can finally play that one piece in symphonic band

when will i be good enough
when can i finally say that i was sucessful

i want to be good enough

but i dont know how to get there

"you're beautiful!"
       - he said
                        "thank you."
                             - i reply
          "no i'm not."
                 - i think to myself

How are you supposed to fill a book when you don't have any words left in your mind or letters on your tongue?

- if you know the answer please tell me :(:

Drowning in a salty lake
A lake of my own tears

I weep when I see
The swan shimmering in the sun

I wish I could be like you, I say.

I need you,
more than you could ever know,
or need me back.

Because it’s so much worse
than you think it is.

To be me,
and to live my life,
is like living in hell,
right next to an unreachable
Heaven.

Because if you live like I do,
then you know what it’s like.

A demon,
living inside of you,

Scratching at your veins
to get out,
to escape.

But it’s trapped,
it always has been,
and it always will be;
because it’s NEVER getting out.

but i can't stop thinking about him and how he's loving her and kissing her and hugging her and looking at her like he did with me.

A stranger
A crush
A friend
A lover
My lover
My heartbreak
My man not in the mirror

The places we met in the dark look different in the day,
As if they had never been places at all...

I’m climbing,
always climbing
the wall of knowledge

but I think,
that I’ve been climbing
the wrong wall

the wall of love,
is calling my name,
and I see yours
at the top

So, I start climbing the wall
to get to you,
but this wall is so much taller,
and I can’t seem,
to climb is without you

So please help me,
and reach out your hand, and pull me to top
of the Wall of Love,

and let me,
lace my fingers
between yours

Because who cares
what say they say,
what they do,
when all I want

Is to be with you

My one wish,
Is to let our hands collide,
with our fingers entwined

Help my wish come true,
and my heart
will forever belong to you.

what is this life worth?

is it worth the clothes on my back
or the money in my pocket?

is it worth the friends that i have gained
and the lovers i slept with?

is it worth the tears that have fallen
or the smiles i have spread?

what is life worth?

My music
blares softly
through the speakers

My feet,
cold
against my wood floors

I stand at my window
wondering,
are you looking
at the moon too?

Or are you asleep
Or maybe you’re just ignoring my text
that I sent to you
hours ago

I wonder,
why did you stop loving me
when,
how,
was it me?

I bet it was me.

"what's wrong?"
                "nothing and everything at the same time."

When I talk to you,
the world around us
just stops
it stops spinning,
people stop moving,
and it’s just you and me
here,
together

all I see is you,
all my troubles
doubts
and worries are left behind

because in this time
all that matters is you.

I know
how much you must hate me
right now
you have plenty of reasons to be,
and honestly,
I would be mad
and annoyed too
if I were you

because I still have
your phone number
written down

yet even after all this time
I could never
bring myself to throw it away

and for some reason,
I still care about you,
yet I know that I shouldn’t.

So go ahead,
be mad at me
walk away from me.

But when you’re beaten down
and heartbroken,
don’t come running back to me
looking for comfort,
because you won’t find it
in me.