apart from the rent that's 12 weeks overdue, the 7 missed voice memos, the special midweek lunches you have that you pass perspiring paper boxes of respectably uneaten quesadillas that christen your laundered floors, that i refuse out of fasting as an excuse so as to not add up toβ what i owe you:
the music, the rawness of Vancouver Sleep Clinic and The Psychedelic Furs at two in the morning when i can't sleep, so you wouldn't either.
the good dreams, when you told me if only nightmares had brakes, i wouldn't suffer another.
and you were my other,
what i owe you:
all the wrong reasons to the right ones i never meant to say, out of fright of out of fright of out of fright of love,
a sober kiss good night, half asleep a giggle and awake on a morning that only smells like waffles, some borrowed French cologne and you.