Dear all-seeing creator
Or figment of our imagination
You are my least favorite ex
But I did really love you, for a time

See, you taught me how to love others
But you also told me loving myself was selfish
You told me I needed to give everything to you
And that having anything of my own was sinful

You told me that all people sin
But you also taught me about forgiveness
You told me that no matter what you’d love me
But also said I didn’t really deserve your love

You gave me mixed signals
Told me I should love everyone
But then that loving a woman was wrong
That loving anything more than you was wrong

You told me I was made in your glory
But that I would forever be shrouded in sin
That evil of my own making would come
And I’d have to remain true to you

So I’m conflicted I guess, or just confused
I don’t know if I believe or don’t
I don’t know if I should hate you or love you
But I do know I don’t need you

So that is why I called you my ex
Because I did love you, and I don’t hate you
Because you were important in my life
But now I’ve found better people and things

Things and people that make me happy
And don’t sometimes make me hate myself
These people let me know I’m worthy
And that’s something you never told me