I can't understand why I cant let him in Hes been nothing but kind But I'm stuck in my own skin
How could he see me As beautiful and brave? I've lived in this body long enough And believe me it always caves.
He can't look at me without smiling And its contagious, I do the same I want to know so much more about him What he hides from the world, what makes him afraid.
I want to let my walls down for him But I'm so afraid to let him in I'm actually a lot to handle most days When he sees the real me theres no way I'll win
I keep telling him I am messy I'm not sure he understands what that really means How can I explain how most days I hate myself And there are days I feel like I'm torn apart inside of me.
How do I let someone new in With all the baggage I come along with I'm not sure where to even begin I should probably just quit.
If theres one thing I'm good at Its self destruction at best I know hes gonna see that soon. I guess for now I'll give it a rest.