I made it in today

Kind of...

Maybe I should say I made it out of bed today

And I'm here...



I can't really recall how I got here

All I can tell you is my bad day playlist was on repeat

The whole car ride here


I stopped a few times.

Once for coffee.

A couple for red lights.

And then in the parking lot.

To take some deep breaths.


I thought I was ready today.

I did all I could to make sure I was prepared.

But as soon as I pulled in all I wanted to do was turn around.


Most days, I love my job

Most days

I make it there on time, and there is no struggle


But today was different.

I couldn't give it my all today.

I knew that the second I walked through those doors

They would need me


And the truth is today,

I really needed someone to be there for me.


So I didn't make it.

I had to give up today.

And maybe that's okay.


Because maybe, for me to help them

Sometimes I need to to help myself first


Maybe today, it was okay to put myself first.

Maybe...

I should do that more often.