i can’t wait

for you to leave me.

i can’t wait

for you to love me.

i can’t wait

for you to suddenly
disappear
leaving me with nothing
but questions

and

ghosts of you
scattered across every place
i look at.

i can’t wait

for you to suddenly
message me
saying,

“everything’s alright.”

comforting me with your embrace,

removing the tears
i’ve spent thinking of
endless possibilities —
which most are negative.

i can’t wait

to fall again
knowing that
at the end of the height,
i’d be welcomed by

a hard

concrete

floor;

cemented by

life’s greatest work — fate.

i can’t wait

to stop

o v e r t h i n k i n g.

put me out
of this misery,
by telling me

“i’m here.”