do you remember

how it feels

to lie with a woman 

and hold her

as close in your heart

as she is in your arms


whose arms were those

whose heart was that

what woman


the things you unraveled from yourself 

without a thought

in club bathrooms and

green fields and

***** carpet floors

you cannot put those back

the way they were

you cannot 

turn the lights back out


no one ever tells you that

no one ever tells you child

be careful
what you pull on 

be careful

where you look