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Noah Vanderwerf Jul 2022
A seventy year old woman is waiting at her physician's office in a hospital gown. Her name is called by a secretary, and she calmly gets up to walk to the desk. She is told that her doctor is waiting to speak with her in his office, where he has the clothes she arrived in.

After some time, she exits the office in her dress, shawl, and shoes. She is clutching a manilla envelope. She is wide-eyed, calm, and content. Her face glistens with the fresh residue of tears.

The woman's granddaughter is waiting in her sedan, parked in an adjacent parking structure. She is listening to music on the radio. The woman shuffles to the passenger seat door and enters the car. The granddaughter instinctively starts the car and begins backing out of the parking space. As they're leaving the parking structure, the granddaughter notices the manilla envelope held by the woman. She stares at it, missing her signal to turn onto the road. She ***** her head back forward, and her lip quivers before gradually morphing to a smile. She turns off the radio before continuing their trip home.

The woman enjoys many nights with her relatives and friends, hosting dinner parties and being treated to recreational outings.

When the woman meets friendly acquaintances or loved ones in public, they always deliberately congratulate her before swiftly and gracefully continuing their conversation as normal.

One month after the previous doctor's visit, the woman is awakened by breakfast in bed, prepared by her daughter and granddaughter who are both doing their best to contain their beaming excitement.

"These deviled eggs are wonderful. I knew you would share the skills I taught your mother."

The woman's daughter asks her if she'd like some privacy.

"Oh, no. The more the merrier! I almost couldn't sleep with how much I wondered who would be standing in my kitchen right now. Feel free to let them in, just one at a time at first if you wouldn't mind."

The woman's daughter exhaled in delightful affirmation, and obliged. The daughter and granddaughter left the woman's bedroom.

A tall man named Harvey with white hair, a scully cap,  and glasses put down a mimosa that he was nursing onto the kitchen counter. He smirks when he notices the woman's daughter nodding loudly as she walks towards the crowd. Harvey turns to the rest of the small, tight-knit crowd who are enjoying each other's company in the kitchen. He pardons his interruption, asking if they mind that he go first. Empathetically, everyone in the room encourages him to proceed.

Harvey enters the woman's room.

"Oh my lord! I wish I'd finished that script!"

Harvey chuckles at the woman's remark, bending over to hug her in her bed. The woman gleefully reciprocates, with a grape still bouncing around her mouth.

"You know, I give you full permission here on out to use or adapt anything in my vault. Consider it my retirement gift. If you need to talk to any of the new people to get the rights, just call Diane about it first. She'll straighten it all out."

Harvey praises the woman's work, saying he couldn't do any of it justice. He thanks her for the gesture, but says it won't be necessary. They spend almost fifteen minutes reminiscing with one another.

He asks her how she's feeling.

"Great, actually. Now that I've had more time to process all my feelings recently, especially with everyone else, I feel more dignified. I feel ready for what's to come. I'm surprised we're one of the few cultures of this world that do this. I always knew that this is how we meant it to be, but I was still scared of the future and didn't quite trust the process. Now I'm confident since I've felt that the process is itself trusting me. Does that make any sense?"

Harvey thinks it does. He asks if the woman would like to speak to some of the others, and she agrees.

Over the course of ninety minutes, a hearty handful of relatives and close friends visit the woman in her room in small groups, thanking her for everything they've given them and receiving her own loving compliments in response.

After everyone's spoken to her individually, they all excitedly rendezvous in the kitchen with a pastor. The last of a charcuterie board is picked at by the younger attendees while the daughter speaks to the pastor, who arrived within the past half hour. The daughter is nervously trying to clarify procedural details with the pastor, but the pastor replies speedily and in a reassuring tone.

All the visitors file back into the woman's bedroom, lining the perimeter and encircling her bed. The pastor proudly strides to the center of the room, facing the woman who is practically glowing with honor.

The pastor introduces himself out of formality to the room, but with an infectious sense of levity in acknowledgement that everyone's already acquainted with him. He thanks the woman for electing him to be the officiant of this traditional meeting. He joyously espouses a soliloquy of his personal admirations for the woman, recounting their bonding memories. He acknowledges the mutual love in the room, recognizing those in attendance.

He reaches a cadence, announcing that everyone is gathered in this room today to deliver a greeting of congratulations-in regards to some landmark information-to the woman.

The pastor looks directly at the woman and calmly says "congratulations, Eve. You're dying."

"I AM?!?!"

Grape juice leaks onto her blouse from the side of her mouth.
Noah Vanderwerf Sep 2020
In adolescence, I saw Jupiter.

He was alluring in the dark,
offering smoke and excitement.
We danced and cackled through the high,
pointing fingers and lashing out
to bolster ourselves.

I found my peace without entropy,
and he moved away to chase more confrontation,
revelling in the name of darkness.

In adulthood, I saw jupiter.

She was attractive in the light,
delivering analysis and closure.
We entwined and consoled through the anxiety,
turning noses and quietly denouncing,
to bolster ourselves.

I found my peace without entropy,
and she moved away to chase more condemnation,
revelling in the name of light.

In my future I will see jupiter:
distant, and still boiling.
It may visit me again,
revolving to show either its dark or light sides,

but i will refuse its entropy
with no need to bolster myself.
Noah Vanderwerf May 2020
Many young will start running as soon as possible.
They'll jump and trip,
blaming the terrain for their gaffs as they pull themselves so close to it.

Many old won't push themselves.
They'll crawl the ravines,
avoiding any rock that might slip out from under them.

Some will slow their pace with interest, but also charge through the plains,
stopping to observe every natural cave and canal,
learning to embrace untouched tundras, unforgiving cliffs, and the inevitable.

For there is no guarantee in boldness or caution,
only necessity in openness.
Noah Vanderwerf May 2020
the big bang was the origin of the greatest fractal that will ever exist

everything is the logical conclusion of everything that came before it, eternally entropying into a complete expression

for every pattern, its hosts have unique traits

this deterministic totality cannot discourage us from forging our marks

actualizing change is the destiny of every branch of the fractal in carrying out its life

but we can also not be hurt by the blame that comes from losing sight of this great machination that encapsulates us all
Noah Vanderwerf Apr 2020
He walked away

She screamed that he is weak
and he walked away
Noah Vanderwerf Mar 2020
I won't get mad
but what I see of you will shrink as our distance grows wider

The allure of the tide was too strong for me, like many

The water is soothing, especially when it drowns my ears
And the certainty of its repetitive nature is comfortable

I spent my life feeling its waves for momentary relief, leading to cold abandon when it pulled away

You never got wet, and I hope you never do, bright and resilient

I gave in
Inevitable after dipping into it for so long

I know I am being pulled away
I know I will never be back

I know you will never stand with me
I know you won't, and shouldn't

I may only know shade
When you still bear sunlight

I may become the water
And I may curse the sand

I just need you to know that you didn't push me into the ocean

It had already taken me
Noah Vanderwerf Feb 2020
The more people leave happy today, the more will come back tomorrow.

They want to see my marble
reaching towards them
but not too close.

They want to see what speaks to them
and to feel like they're learning
but nothing too different.

Their expectations are all unique
wondering where it stands
and to whom it stares.

I would love to create just one opus
to contain all of my concepts
standing as a self symbol.

But no one can view it identically
from the same vantage point
or the same lighting.

If I can't standardize their experience
then how can I direct attention
and guarantee my impact?

Every patron will see a new sculpture
It will pose differently enough
to fit their perspective.

The sculpture will appear still
unchanging with time
as if eternal.

The fewer people watching my sculptures form, the fewer will doubt their reality.

That isolation is the price of living in the museum.
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