He said Your name

as He reached for me, reached for the child
who He says unbuckled His pride and knelt
with sin and sweat (or is that blood?) on her back.
His reverence pleasured itself against the length of her throat
she left her mouth agape,
gagged to submission
but he wouldn't know the better.

and as He sunk deeper, wounded me, and sunk deeper still,
soul scorched under his Divinity and Damnation,

He said Your name.

in that moment, oh God oh God oh God
did You forgive Him?

you push away his trust
and keep yourself from sinking
by drowning him
he who keeps you afloat

the love i had for you
existed in deleted poetry
beautiful, but not for the world to see
because cruelty broke the reality
that, for a moment, led us by

and i wonder
if you still stay awake like how we used to
like i do now
hoping... that one day
i'll love you again

her name begins with a c
and she's afraid of the wind

eyes like sun rays, blinding
she dances for the early spring

feet against concrete walls
she stands tall in reverence of whats to come

shes afraid of the wind
but the wind is what will bring me to her

i am a fool to believe
a sun that brings light
cannot bring fire

"i love you"
and im back circling in your gravity
locked in an orbit you pull me by

i linger between the rocks you left for me
always so generous
there is no air in space

and i patiently wait

wondering wondering
as you lift me across constellations
if this is not love
why?

wondering wondering
as my core erupts from your contact
if this is not love
what is?