You had me at hello.
My mind wandered places
only bodies would know.
Into your home, next in your bed.
Too close for comfort
as I ran pleasing fingers through your head.
I craved your scent.
Longed for your touch.
If infatuation is a rush,
I need more of this stuff!
It was love at first sight,
A truth, you chose to fight.
Therefore, that hello never turned to goodnight.

I liked to make you mad,
Loved to make you sad.
Anything to convince myself that I didn't LOVE you that **** bad!

Reality was, I was madly in love!
emotions? boundaries? commitment?
I can't process such stuff!

But you loved me.
And in return, I made you cry.
I want to be your baby again,
I'm no longer the bad guy.

Forgive my demeanor,
dare to dig deeper.
There is depth inside,
be brave and ENTER.
As you feel inner, be not afraid.
Rule of my heart:
only losers get played.
Forgive who you perceive,
If not, you should leave...
I am who I am; not who you believe.

My mind is a vessel
That wants me dead.
It ****** me at day,
Rapes me at bed.
Unhinged thoughts,
Has numbed creativity.
Once so optimistic,
Now I doubt my abilities.
This head will bring my end.
A truth, I cannot pretend.
Heavy is the crown,
For a unfortunate man.

Sins of the father
We all become our mother.
Love and acceptance;
We seek in many lovers.
A thousand lifetimes,
Pain knows no number.
Rebirth is good,
But existing is boringly somber.

Black or White.
Wrong or Right.
Dark or Light?

Beauty in both
But is there hope?

For us to undo the past?
If not, we won't last.

Actions have a headstart, but Karma is fast!

I used to be so weak
Only strength I had was to lie and weep.
I cried alone, until the noises collectively made a song.
Melodic lullabies as if I were once a baby.
I never was though,
and that's so crazy.