lust has become my job
its makes me sing
as sin makes me sob.

for love, bodies I rob
hit after hit
I belong to the mob.

lust has become a game
not playing is crazy
the end is truly insane.

A beautiful beast
they all want to tame
all for fun, all for fame.

How at night I wish it was day
at day I wish to fade away
sleep forever at the beach
body floating alongside the bay

I wish to be unavailable
when my demons ask me to come out and play
people will claim to miss me
but that's what they are expected to say

tired of feeling this much
tired of life's burning touch
I crave numbness, I need that rush
so let me escape and don't cry mama----just hush

love and laughter we enjoy now
this will end, I'm sure how.

bodies we shared
bed defiled.

the game wasn't fair
too many fouls.

when it's over I'll die inside
but flash a smile.

then I'll apologize
and take a bow.

I've stumbled upon danger
exciting yet detestable
I can't help but breathe anger

unable to indulge or enjoy
like the day after Christmas
losing your favorite toy

girls are jealous
brave are boys
love I've lost

*time destroyed

God has taken the taste
yet addiction,
I still chase.

My last few dollars,
I willingly give to waste.

I call it my crave case
when it hits,
it like landing on first base.

Its not home,
I'm not safe
I'm out when I meet him face to face.

pills to sleep
now I don't eat.

pills for anxiety
now I don't act like me.

pills for mood
so I don't seem rude.

pills for that
pills for this...

They'll forever be my friend
until I no longer exist.

as a dog returns to his *****
so I return to sin.

He's always waiting for me,
asking where I been.

He claims to love me
more so than kin.

I will leave him one day father,
just not sure when.