my dreams are the safest place to love you

To have faith in someone
And all that they are
Is a beautiful thing
To know another
And every piece of their soul
Is a beautiful thing
But
It is less beautiful
To break someone's trust
It is less beautiful
To be caught in a lie

You fell apart
Because you couldn't stand my choice
I drifted away
But I was still sure
Forgiveness is yours
But change still remains
Because lies are drugs
Shot into your veins


My body said no
So you picked another
My mouth said no
So you picked another
Because to be with me
Was not enough
To be with me
Should have been enough

only fools do what I do

I would understand if you hate me
I hate me to

Married by words
And to words
With two words

She was stripped down
To the least she had ever been
Laid bare of all comforts
And it was only then
That she found herself
For she had not been able
To see before
Because eyes lie
And dreams conspire
And we are much more
Than we seem at surface



**Depth

It is enough
Only when there is nothing left
You will always take more
Until it is all gone

I give and I gave
And I died
You swore and you killed
And you tried

To be in control
And have it your way
You said this is harsh love
Harsh in every way

What is gentle?
What is sweet?
What is kind?
What is love?

I will never know
Hugs and kisses
Just a stare out a window
To what she misses

I long for better
And you shorten the leash
I retreat
And you yell and preach

I want a conversation
With a little truth
I ask one question
And all hell breaks loose

My nights are safe
Yet you intrude
To take my heart
And find it used

Little sparks in my eyes
And in my life
But fire always
Pays its price

Word as a release
But I bite them back
Trying to be enough
Reminded of what I lack

A comparison
That doesn't compare
To light or dark
Not right or fair

I will always have questions
Answered with slaps
I want to hide
But you drag me back

Hell is hot
But less that your rage
Words that bind
Me into a cage

Add me
To your list
Of those you beat
And those you've kissed

Give me a hammer
To build a home
Give me a friend
So I won't be alone

Play me some music
At my demand
Then take it all away
Just like you planned

I could run farther
And I could run faster
But I crawl back
Like a dog to a master

Good Lord, sever
Me from the earth
And let me sleep
Twixt sky and hearth

I survived the fire
And the flames
The embers are still warm
But soon
I will burn out like the stars

giving up on poems
they lost their light
like a candle without a match
no pair for the dark

sometimes its the littlest things in life
that can cause you to break
the opening of a lid
the creaking of a door
the sound of a loved one
you can't be there for
maybe being left by yourself
and you have to put
those feelings on a shelf

long days and longer nights
never empty but always hollow
short tempers and shorter strides
where to walk just to hide

I am no great judge of character
Except to critique my own*

And maybe that is my greatest fault
That I see things in myself
That do not belong
And those that do cling to me?
I dare not let them go

how do I channel
all of these emotions
into words and sentences
that you can understand

you all remind me
so sweetly and fondly
that you will be there
forever and ever and always

would you comprehend
the notes my heart plays
that beats unsteadily
all over the place

to me they feel concentrated
as they pound through my limbs
like its beating away
and leaving me heartless

as beautiful as you are
and as ugly as I feel
it is not wonder you left
that you had to leave

*Come Back
Is the rhythm my heart beats
Stay Here
Is the hope it abandons

I don't have to let go
But it hurts to hold on
I can't find a middle ground
My thoughts don't make sense

How can I sort out
All that lies inside
Separate what to think and feel
Into piles to keep or discard

I swallow my pride
And **** up my tears
As my head rattles around
It will be okay

I told you time, and time again
It is going to be alright
We have done harder thing before
Its a road less traveled

But we always make it to the end
We walk together
Hand in hand
Tell me when to stop

We can go slow
We can take time to dance
To make our mark on the trees
So we can find our way home

Although I am still salty
I cannot cry for you like I did before

I cling to this, my own resolve,
like a coat clutched against my body in a storm

Time flies on very speedy wings

you wanted my heart
I gave you my soul
you split it in half
to make yourself whole

one heart beating
was more than enough
you cut me in half
in a world much to rough

I swallowed my pride
you spilled my secrets
offered me back my broken parts
never mind those, you can keep it