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169 · Nov 2015
hate
Lexie Nov 2015
I would understand if you hate me
I hate me to
169 · Sep 2015
I saw you.
Lexie Sep 2015
You still amaze me you running *******.
idk if this counts as a poem :p
169 · Oct 2022
Shards of Glass
Lexie Oct 2022
I attempt again
To swallow
The words lining the inside of my throat
It has been there
Since before I knew what letters were
Spiraling down
Into the pit of my stomach
It does not go down easy
It does not settle well
And when it tries to come back up
It sits again
In the back of my throat
Like the taste of a hollow cry
168 · Feb 2014
What Are This
Lexie Feb 2014
Hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahah­ahahahahahahahaha

What are this
What are this
What are this
What are this

It is a silver unicorn!
#EvilLaugh
Like if you know what 'What Are This' is from.
168 · Nov 2015
Take Your Time
Lexie Nov 2015
I tried to catch the time,
       but it slipped between my fingers
                           I needed to slow it down
                                   So I could get back to you
                                                                            but
                                     I didn't realize it was me
            Who was making it take to long
      To get back to you, my love
So I am sorry, take your time
168 · Nov 2015
Fools
Lexie Nov 2015
only fools do what I do
168 · Jan 2021
Reverse
Lexie Jan 2021
I miss when trust came easy
I miss life before you
168 · Dec 2021
Forget
Lexie Dec 2021
You have no power here
I thought we were too gentle for anger
Too old for foolishness
Too tender to spear our words against each other
Who has been guarding you
For all this time
What did you fear would come for you
When you said you were waiting for me
Let the little things go
Let the sun go down
Be it on your anger
Be it coming through the windows
Gentle on the skin of love in the shadows
We are hollow bodies
Pouring out small victories
Waging small wars
There are no gates here
Blank paper skin
Traced with graphite fingertips
God told me you were human
I believed him
What does that make me
Are we not beyond this
The moment it is lived
Are we not so small in this world
Smaller to the expanse of the universe
Tiny in his hands as a grain of sand
Will you wash with me
Saltwater will unburden us
Currents will take us further
Pulling our love thin as a spiders web
We hung once
Participles in the air
Thick and humid and heavy
I will remember us as such
I will remember
168 · May 2018
Tears Changed Me
Lexie May 2018
Although I am still salty
I cannot cry for you like I did before

I cling to this, my own resolve,
like a coat clutched against my body in a storm
168 · May 2019
Some Things Never Change
Lexie May 2019
I am hopeful
Stupid, but hopeful
167 · Sep 2015
Just Enough
Lexie Sep 2015
Just enough is what I need
Just enough I do not have

Just you will suffice
  To keep we warm and calm in this life
167 · Nov 2021
Spark
Lexie Nov 2021
I can be honest
About everything
Except my feelings towards you
I could spin you
Word woven tapestries
About the way
The moon stirs my heart
But may God lean against
What stirs for you in me
This gentle hunger
The weak spot in my throat
Time moves sideways
Breathe baits
Catching on the last lingering hope
That you would burn for me
167 · Jan 2016
On it goes..
Lexie Jan 2016
Time flies on very speedy wings
167 · Jan 2018
Stuff of Dreams
Lexie Jan 2018
it makes it's home with depth
nestled in the layers of my skin
there is no warmth or comfort
to be found in such a barren place
people take and people touch
and to you what is consent

you know and learn and teach alike
I see and watch and burn in light
I try not to lose myself
in all that you are and become
and that which I wish to be
you waste nothing
not time or emotion
while I scavenge for scraps of love
among the nothing that I am


it weaves it's secrets into my hair
just as it traces sweetened memories
into the swirls of my fingers and toes
so that it shall remain a part of me
even after long in it's leaving
though I pray it never leaves me
167 · Sep 2023
Sun Sign
Lexie Sep 2023
After the sun went down
I thought about your face
And who you are
I remembered when
We were first in the dessert
Then the mountains
You were the same
We are home now
I am home
Because I am with you
167 · Jan 2016
Home
Lexie Jan 2016
how do I channel
all of these emotions
into words and sentences
that you can understand

you all remind me
so sweetly and fondly
that you will be there
forever and ever and always

would you comprehend
the notes my heart plays
that beats unsteadily
all over the place

to me they feel concentrated
as they pound through my limbs
like its beating away
and leaving me heartless

as beautiful as you are
and as ugly as I feel
it is not wonder you left
that you had to leave

*Come Back
Is the rhythm my heart beats
Stay Here
Is the hope it abandons

I don't have to let go
But it hurts to hold on
I can't find a middle ground
My thoughts don't make sense

How can I sort out
All that lies inside
Separate what to think and feel
Into piles to keep or discard

I swallow my pride
And **** up my tears
As my head rattles around
It will be okay

I told you time, and time again
It is going to be alright
We have done harder thing before
Its a road less traveled

But we always make it to the end
We walk together
Hand in hand
Tell me when to stop

We can go slow
We can take time to dance
To make our mark on the trees
So we can find our way home
167 · Dec 2015
Rough
Lexie Dec 2015
you wanted my heart
I gave you my soul
you split it in half
to make yourself whole

one heart beating
was more than enough
you cut me in half
in a world much to rough

I swallowed my pride
you spilled my secrets
offered me back my broken parts
never mind those, you can keep it
167 · Dec 2018
Palms for the Poor
Lexie Dec 2018
It's hard sleeping with empty hands
167 · Jan 2019
Fluid in Motion
Lexie Jan 2019
I have water hands
And oh! The life they bring
To many things
Yet be cautious in your drinking
For water can overwhelm so rapidly
Rivers flood in spring
167 · Oct 2022
Backrooms
Lexie Oct 2022
If this is a dream
Truly, why are there so many hallways
I am forever wandering
In between the inbetween
It seems I will never reach the end
If there is an end to reach
166 · Oct 2015
Moment
Lexie Oct 2015
Minutes made of moments
Life made of minutes
You'd never know you lived it
Unless you were in it

*this moment
166 · Dec 2017
Smile.
Lexie Dec 2017
Oh that you could forge a smile
That made it all the way to your eyes
It sputters out at the corners of your mouth
Your eyes do not dance in the light

Barely do I even try
To fake a perfect smile
Still you must be the fool
To believe such a thing

But I am not innocent
Still I want no blame
That I would make such a thing
To trap you within

We cannot all see past the surface
Is not the depth of the water
Unknown by those on the shore
Until they break open the waves

It is a silent cry
From the hollows of my cheeks
You cannot touch with your hands
That which you see with your heart
165 · Feb 2014
Letting Go...No
Lexie Feb 2014
Loving you hurts
But being alone is more painful

Saying your name burns
But the silence starts yet another fire

Looking at you is so hard
But the firmness in my heart cant make me look away

You changed my life
And you changed my name
You heard my heart beat
But you inflicted the pain

I thought you would fix it
All of my problems
But now that its over
I just have more scars

The mess I made
The milk we spilled
But none of it mattered
Since we were together

I'd rather not sleep
Than sleep alone
The darkness bites
And the light burns my eyes

The words are redundant
Just the same lies
And I cry out each night
To the starry skies

My wings are bent
My arms are bruised
My head hurts
And my heart is over used

Let it go
I just need to punch a wall
Hold on
Why make the pain last

Just leave me and let me die
Carry my body out with the tide
Haha...life
165 · Jun 2014
Come Back
Lexie Jun 2014
The more roads we build
The more cliffs there are
The more cliffs there are
The more we can fall
The more the fall the farther we go
The farther we go the harder it is to come back
165 · Mar 2016
Shhh.
Lexie Mar 2016
My head in my hands
My heart in yours
The noise is overwhelming
What if I silence it?
165 · Oct 2021
Safe Haven
Lexie Oct 2021
The light bends a little
When we come to this place in the middle
Your safe place is a little to the left
I run to you just a little bit West
I seek you out in the in between
Breathing in sweet and musky, ethene
My soft hands against yours
Water splashing against iron rod
While I wait for my sins
To climb their way up to God
165 · Sep 2015
To Be Made
Lexie Sep 2015
I wished I could have watched you been made
As your maker formed your body

To gentle your curves and temper your soul
I love how he gave you such sharp edges
To keep you safe in this vengeful world

I wish I could have seen him stand
In awe of his beautiful masterpiece

To know you belong not to this body
But to the one who made, and who makes

The created out of the un-created
Into a beautiful ****** existence

You do not know this world
But I will show its vibrant colors

And as you grab you brush
So you can paint your soul into life
I will watch you dream into the ever-night

I want only to know who made you
Not to learn your keepers secrets

But to see the love of your design
And know you were the best moment in time

To see the hands that fashion the hands
Out of the dirt of this earth

Am I the only one who see's
You, in the light of your Maker's worth
165 · Jun 2019
I Don't Sleep Well
Lexie Jun 2019
I called your name in my sleep
Not because I knew you were there
Because I knew if you heard me
You would come
165 · Oct 2022
Woman’s Work
Lexie Oct 2022
Tell me I look like my mother
I carry her emptiness
Her grief
Pours into me
Until I am full
Tonight it spills
Onto the tiles in the kitchen
No worries, it is a woman’s work
165 · Jan 2019
Seeker
Lexie Jan 2019
I felt you in my words, once
And so that is why I continue to write
164 · Dec 2017
Change
Lexie Dec 2017
Time merely changes circumstances
People not so much
Slowly we are worn down
To our thinnest layer
And what is this
That I would live
A life made only of regrets
With a heart
That does not even beat
And my greatest accomplishment is this
That I have walked with many souls made of stars
And I have learned nothing
Except that I am made of glass
All I have seen
Is that which you have shown me
Whatever I have tasted
Is not as sweet as your kisses
For everything I feel
Is not with my own heart
164 · Mar 2016
Notice:
Lexie Mar 2016
If you see my sanity please bring it back.

Thank you.
164 · Mar 2016
Hide
Lexie Mar 2016
I wrapped my arms around myself.

And the voice in my head whispered,
"Retreat into your shell,
they will never break it,
like they broke you before."

My heart echoed in agreement, as it retreated into the abyss.
164 · Jan 2021
Angst
Lexie Jan 2021
Endings are as nuetral as change in the weather
164 · Jun 2018
Bad Habits pt. 4
Lexie Jun 2018
I have a bad habit
of allowing those that my heart beats for
to break it
164 · Aug 2017
Anger
Lexie Aug 2017
This red torrent
Rains and pours through my head
All the animosity grows
And it rushes like rapids

I gave you the knowledge
I told you everything you needed to know
And yet this is your response
Stupid silence

You said when he crossed the line
That it would be far enough
But you didn't even draw it
So he gets away with it all

His hands on temples
That do not belong to him
DONT ******* TOUCH ME
Its. Not. Your. Body.
163 · Sep 2014
Slivers
Lexie Sep 2014
even a heart the size of the moon has a dark side
163 · Dec 2018
Birds
Lexie Dec 2018
We were just two birds
Taking up space in between the yellow lines on the pavement
I wrote this, and then it made me cry, but idk why
163 · Mar 2016
To you:
Lexie Mar 2016
You are beautiful
You are loved
You are a gift
From above

Nothing will make you less
For you are already plenty
You are enough
No matter your destiny

You are a joy
You have a beautiful smile
Though sometimes I know
It might take a while

Every word you say
I hear in my heart
No matter how close
Or far apart

You I do not know
Your face is a stranger
But I have you in my heart
Soul brothers and sisters
163 · Dec 2020
Catch up,
Lexie Dec 2020
I think I have outgrown myself
163 · Jun 2019
Hands Clasp the Same
Lexie Jun 2019
Your gods need you to live
Mine know nothing of you
Yours ask little
Mine know too much
We both pray in the dark
163 · May 2014
I Remember You
Lexie May 2014
I remember you and your devilish smile
All the night we stayed up and talked
All the hours in the morning when we cried
I remember your smile how it grew and when it faded
I can see you in my head
But I wish you were with me instead
The thought of you in anothers arms
All but breaks my heart
But I don't have to worry
Cause you loved me from the start
But if I were a poet I would soon forget
How to write the lines like the ones on your hands
The ones that held mine and kept me warm
Then ones my parents grasped as we were torn
But its okay the know see the light
And we can be silent through the night
The day will come when I don't have to remember
But that is far off a distant November

I remember you and the light in your eyes
I remember you among all the other guys
163 · Jan 2019
Burnt
Lexie Jan 2019
You tried to fight the fire
But all you learned
Was to fear the flames
163 · Sep 2023
Star Song
Lexie Sep 2023
The stars are singing
Their first song tonight
Again, the hum of the universe
Rings out into space

Celestial bodies
Stars like bells
Heavens choir
Beyond where light can touch

Will you listen
Turn your head to me
Let me sing you
Our song of creation

Up, from the back of my throat
Comes our genesis
Lean in to her
Let her
It will not be 7 days
Or 40 years
It is milk and honey
It is music
163 · Oct 2014
my memory
Lexie Oct 2014
beautiful girls all over the world thought my time would be wasted they've got nothing on you baby, nothing on you baby


this plays over and over again in my head
just like the day you sang it to me
I wish it was real but now all I remember
is a beautiful sorrowful memory
163 · May 2019
Trippin
Lexie May 2019
I have a bad habit of falling
My other tendancies seem to bother you more
The getting up on my own
The moving on by myself
163 · Jul 2019
Fallen
Lexie Jul 2019
I wonder here
At the bottom
Of the stars
Not knowing
If the sky
Will ever fill up
We have both
Been empty
For a time
The moon will find
Her lover tonight
Colliding
The big dipper
Spill over
Washing away
Worries and woes
Of the earth
Washing down
With the milky way
I know you
You are like me
Saving good memories
For when you are sad
Self addressed letters
For when you have
No words of comfort
I loved you then
I know you now
The last of the earth
Trickles away
Streams unbidden
My tears will follow
I was fallen once
I am fallen again
I know you now
163 · Aug 2019
Calvary
Lexie Aug 2019
We feel
In the trenches

They say
When in Rome
But I don't think
I could crucify God

Palms nailed
Side lanced
I am not one
To beg forgiveness

Not one
To fall on my knees
Not one
To forgive

Nothing
He would not do for me
Nothing
I would not ask of him

I mourn your death
As a betreyal
When I look down
The hammer
Is in my hand

You blame
The church
For sins of man

Hold accountable
The temple
Not the hands

The alter
For its silence

The tabernacle
For curtains
To thick to unveil
The sins of a saint

A holy of holies
Torn
Two pieces of cloth
One for a funeral shroud
The latter a sail for a ship
To hell's gates

You beg
For anything, nothing
There are no promises
On bleeding ground

A pilgrimage
Of swords
Not confessing
A holy war

My grandmother
Had a different name
Before I was born
She will not die with it

I write about temples
My feet
Will never be clean enough to enter

Sins
I cannot wash off my hands
Heaven's
I pray my children will know
Hell's
I carry
On broken shoulders

I do not want you
To know the weight

Not your burden
To bear
My cross to carry

In the tomb
Of my ancestors
The stone
Rolled away

The kingdom is yours
162 · Mar 2016
Shhh.
Lexie Mar 2016
I will tell you in my own way
Which isn't really saying it at all
But it is okay
I will never blame you
Because it is my fault anyway
162 · Jun 2019
Chasms
Lexie Jun 2019
I will find the edge of the world
Where else would you go
Dangle my feet on the edge
Waiting for you
Until the sun forgets how to set
As the oceans run over
Chasing unknown depths
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