"victum" poems
You talk to me as if nothing is wrong
acting as if your the one
the victum
whos not getting along
but your ****** up and done
your venom leaking from your teeth
i swear i can almost smell your heat
you went and did the deed
and came back to me
calling me
begging saying sorry.
Waiting for my response
i couldn't move
i stayed still
feeling the breath inside me increase
with guilt
i stare at nothing but the white i see before me
you touch my hand
i start to cry
i pull away wanting to hide
how could you do it
i thought you loved me
a simple mistake that you know would hurt me
imposible to believe anything you say anymore
hearing her laugh at me
calling me names
was that ***** worth it
you cant even let me leave you
the image of me walking away
cuts you wide open
do you really think you deserve it?
my forgivness for a sin
a sin that you knew all too good
was my limit.
My heart aching with regret
how could this be
i took you back half heartedly
you hate when i bring it up
but you never seem to notice
the hole you left inside of me
you can barely even focuse
Yes i forgave you
yes i took you back
yes i put it behind me
but the pain does not lack
the hurt will stay with me forever
the memory will never change
the moment when you didnt think
you'd throw my trust away.
Apr 13, 2013
Apr 13, 2013 at 10:05 PM UTC
Why be me?
Why be the victum as you call me?
Why try to still get you to see me.
You never will in the state you are in..cold dark place surrounded by your minions that whorship you for they get to bask in your good side..
Its all i ever all i ever wanted and you took it away..
You tell me im heartless and cold yet you dont see me crying for you daily cause the man i fight for loved me so much he would have never spooke the words to me you have over and over..
You got what you broke my heart for..your freedom your choice to do as you please..no respondablities for anyone but you..yet you choose the hard path and ill forever be blamed for it..
I still fight evertime we talk for you to see me and you call me heartless because i point out the facts..
You call me cold when i speak the way you do to people.
Im mean when i dont hide the way i feel..
The fact that you do not see me for the woman that i truley am shows me things that i didnt want to face..
Im not heartless im the oppsite i have too much heart for you i care too much and its comes out in a way u cant handle.Im cold cause words never let you see how much my hands are shaking and my tears are blinding me you forgot who i am..as i forgot who you are cause the man i love so deeply would have never let me think the worst of him and be okay with it..the man i put up so high on a mountain to admire would have never thought of touching another woman before me...never talked to me the way you do as if me of all people were out to get you..
The man i love would have never left me alone scared of the world knowing im scared of the dark..but you did for your chance of having freedom and many woman to make himself feel bigger..when all he had to do was look deep in my eyes to know i thought he ruled the world..he was my everything and it wasnt enough..now im punsihed daily when im me or i get too emonational because it causes him pain and i become the cruel one for being me..its best i know to step away from him but my heart still beats beside him and i feel empty..
May 6, 2013
May 6, 2013 at 3:32 PM UTC
To live and earn;
To risk and learn
From chances missed
To treasures spurned
To laugh and cry;
To leap and fly
The jagged peaks
Of mountains high
To act and lead;
To plant the seed
That trees might grow
From fields below
To ask and probe;
To break the code,
The ties that bind,
The keys of mind
To dream and love;
To scream and shove
And carve in stone
An earthly throne
To sing and write;
To feel the plight
Of victims wronged
And make it right
To live!
~ P
(#VivoVixiVictum)
3/23/2014
Mar 23, 2014
Mar 23, 2014 at 11:01 AM UTC
the empty feeling comes and i succumb
for me being alone is fearsome
have i lost something? i don't know?
and that is the reason why i must go
outside to find some-one that is victum
to this loneliness that is like venom
some-one that with open arms i can welcome
one who knows the empty and has this wisdom
some-one that can carry on our kingdom
and one who knows this feeling we must numb
Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 7:30 PM UTC
In my hand I hold my heart.
Only to watch you take it apart.
In my mind I knew you would be mine.
Only to find out I was love blind.
In my world I only seen the sunshine never lies.
Only untill you brought the dark gray sky's.
Inside of me was happiness that I couldnt explain.
Untill you introduced to me the meaning of pain.
In my dreams you where my superman.
Until I became your victum that was your plan.
In my memory's you held me close.
Untill I seen you with another I was no longer yours.
now I look at the mirror.thanking God for he is my hero.
Dec 18, 2014
Dec 18, 2014 at 2:36 PM UTC
Whither, thee ask?
Wherefore hither and thither;
Amongst the grass it slither,
Like a wet bar of soap in thine hand;
Slipping through the tightest clutch.
So thee no longer grab such jump.
Instead, place width between two palms,
And witness a stagger in the hop.
Look! Just there! A light in the cold!
This fool scratches the sides to a dull.
Like a lion gnawing on marrow;
Consuming even the invisible meat.
Mistaking the after taste in the lick
As another victum to the stomach!
Oh and how the sky shines the morn.
How the sun turned ally in such affair;
What once was a solid,
Now runs as a liquid.
Be gone then! Our game is done!
No more time for me,
When thy thumb striketh the media!
Jun 4, 2018
Jun 4, 2018 at 5:59 PM UTC