my brain is now hardwired
to think anything not instant or under a certain amount of characters is a bore
its not what I’m reading is boring
it’s often unappreciated genius
but the laborious act of doing something that doesn’t have instant reward, gratification and isn't instantly self-serving
I will struggle
and I will forget whatever I read anyway
my memory ***** anyway

I sometimes crave I can eat books
digest their information
I would take a UBS port in the back of my head
so you can upload better thoughts
I hate my lazy self for this but its truthful
all my friends are pseudo-feminists, pseudo-musicians, pseudo-interlectuals
I’m just like them and I cannot remember enough to fight back their low level arguments
I just recognise, sigh and move on

I cannot keep up with the true intellects
and never will
my low paid job will allow me to survive
In a world which priorities are worse than mine
mindlessly carrying on whilst
"The United Nations Food and Agriculture Organization estimates that about 805 million people of the 7.3 billion people in the world, or one in nine, were suffering from chronic undernourishment in 2012-2014”
copy and pasted from 2 minutes of googling
TRUE POETRY
qualitative and quantitative data will show how moronic we all are

The age of idiots, with a few bright lights shining through
I will be a fellow idiot
feeling weak under it all
change is constant but slow
the world is ours and we chose what to do with it
over simplified ideas of a simplified mind

"You need to be thin"
"You have to dress pretty"
"You are naturally tall"
are all you need
then give me a call"
For
your acceptance into the hall
I watched what I ate
I worked out more
and became the facade
to please them all.
So
Click away Mr
take pictures of this skinny
model facade I put on
Prepare
the runway Mr
so I can flaunt andwalk
pretty,thin and tall
just don't ask me
did you eat today
because I'll say
sure I did
I ate plenty of
undernourishment
with a side of regret
sprinkling of diet pills
for dinner I will eat
instagram photos of food
post a few photos of my
pretty,tall,thin self
and suddenly I won't
be hungry anymore.
So click away Mr
Yes I ate and will eat
today
and still maintain this
facade for them all