I've built these flames so high
With passion that's eating me alive
They once served me
With their warm
Graceful licks
And angelic light
Guiding me
Comforting me.
Now,
Becoming so out of controll
I can't stand within one hundred miles
How I wish I didn't work so hard
To gain everything at once.
I just want it now.
I just want it all.
Consume me and take my body
Leave the ashes as proof
That
Slow and steady wins the race.
You will get there.
Don't let greed's vicious-
Serpent like tongue
Taste upon your motivation
It will rob you
Of everything.

I’d do almost anything for you.
Almost anything.
Almost.
Not that...
I won’t leave my own flesh and blood.
Now I pay the price. We both do.
You’ve never stared into your own soul, young, innocent and wholly dependent on you.
I bet you hate me for it some days...
That makes two of us.
So be it.
Doesn’t make it any easier.

searching.... for that perfect person.  All of what I think I want I also think I cannot have and that it does not exist, yet I continue to search.
My heart cries out in pain and an aching that I cannot ignore any longer.
Is it possible to have true love at my age?  Am I too dried up and used?
There's always the "one day, one day, one glorious day, he will show up when I least expect it" *******.  

Underneath the heartache is a deeper ache.  Have I missed my chance? Is this how my life will be from now on?  Even the thought of that makes my soul crumble.  I suppose if that's what God intended for me, then sobeit.  It can't be true...