Time is irrelevant when we are together, if i could put a stop on time i would. so i could charish the moment of her sweet and tastefull smile. what i do today will affect my life tomorrow,so if i love her throughout the next life/' even though she loves me, do i truly love her back? if i did, would i be holding back. she wants to have me but will she accept the whole package. i dont know how to tell her because watching her face crenge will feel like a neddle periceing through me. if i love her she loves me then why have i not told anyone. why have i been holding back from someone i am sharing my heart with. i have kept this a secrect because i love this girl, she makes me feel like nothing matters when i am with her, when she smiles. its enough to keep my heart filled with blood. when she is sad i feel my aertry getting clogged, gasping for another breath. this girls means the universe to me, if i loose her for careless mistakes i have made in the past i believe i will never feel the same way about loveing another human being on this earth other than my family. there is not a day or a second i think about telling her what might be wrong with me. when i do tell her, should i tell the truth? when i do tell her, should i hold her hands, when i do tell her. will she accept me for the person i am today. i think about this everday i see or talk or reminese on the time we have spent toghter. if i tell her will she leave me? i have this hunting me as if i have a bounty on my head for all the money in the world. i dont know what to do or when to do it, but i know one thing. if i truly love her, i will tell her everything about me and see how we change as a whole, because we are a team untill the end.

The sea, the unknown.
The waves punching the rocks.
And the docks.

The blue is nothing but a reflection.
And my blue is nothing but a reflection.

The sea is where you lay in the sun.
Let it give you a kiss.
Where you sit for hours, calm and reminese.
Sweet calm and grounded.
Fun, warm and the sound is
pure serenity.
And it feels like its repeating in infinity.

And the sea is where the ships drown
And the deeper you go down
Its dark and there's no sound
Death feels near
And there is everything you may fear
The sea is where things disappear
There are still terorities unknown
Under the glow of the blue
And its things we will never know


And you ask me and I dont know
And I sway and sway
So gradient in pure blue
And I drown with the waves sometimes
And I punch the shore sometimes

And I am a universe unknown
And if I dive in too deep, I am far far away from home
And the beach is where I like to be
Sweet and salty air
And just stay there

Cause I tried to explain the things happening to me
But I am still
And calm
Peaceful and grounded
Yet I am punching the shore
And what happening is not a norm
Lost of words, as they have disappeared
I might have dove in too deep
And I dont know what is what anymore

I just see myself in the sea
So let it be, what ever it may be.
Sun kisses and remineses
Dive in and dont get too deep.

I like to take my memories for a walk
Every now and then
To chat and reminese
It's at times quite intense
But what isn't
To look back see from here
To chat and hear it again
Quite refreshing
I must admit
To take a walk with the memories
It's good every now and then

© Jennifer L DeLong 10/2020