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jennifer ann Sep 2014
it's like a nightmare,
everything you feared staring you right in the face,
grinning from ear to ear, and taunting as you scream,
you dont know how to deal with all of the pain you
feel, if only this werent real, and just a terrible, dream.

it's like a bullet to the chest,
agonizing and unexpected.
crying as you're bleeding out, perfusely
but you just get rejected.

your heart filled with so much pain &
anger, you dont know what to do,
so you turn to all of this self
destructive behavior, getting lost in all of this pain,
you slowly begin to lose  you., you
dont know how to overcome, and you have nowhere to run.
you turn to the drugs and the *****, not a friend in the world,
just a sad and lonely girl with nothing left to lose.
Devon Demon Dec 2017
Weather to say sorry I exist, or to apologize perfusely for something I didn’t do.

I am nothing to you, and I will become nothing, I amount to wasted space, a waste of resources that could be used on others.

I am an item to you, easily disposable, and yet.. I’m still around.

Why do all the things I hear, shame me for who I am?  I could easily retort that it’s not your body it’s mine, and that it’s not your life but mine, and then again I have no control over my life, he does, his name is society.

Like an abusive boyfriend, society tells me I’m not good enough, that I’ll never amount to anything, that I’ll always be nothing.

That is why I don’t know weather to say sorry I exist, or to apologize for the “wasted space”
Inno Styles May 2019
One
Love, a luxury I cannot afford, well not in this lifetime anyway. In this lifetime I am all alone and can't even afford the attention of others called friends.

My heart bleeds perfusely inside my chest, longing and yearning to be loved, for the unlovable and emotionless ghoul that I am.

I walk around with an emotionless face like a canvas painted with blankness.

My loneliness suffocates me and chokes me from within, like a tortured soul in hell I hear voices screaming in despair. My soul screams and begs for love,for acceptance,and for friendship.
Crystalmcconnell Jan 2018
Things got worse today.
I saw them take you.
I saw them drag you away.
My stomach feels sick.
I can't speak.
My throat has a lump in it.
I want to talk to you.
I want you back home.
You know I hate sleeping alone.
I had a dream of you.
I woke up in tears.
Tonight when I reached for you
You weren't there.
My heart broke today.
This is the second time it's happened.
I found out new things about you.
I'm trying to ignore them.
My mind is wandering perfusely
I'm doing my best to stop it.
Just give me a call tomorrow.
Let me know this will all be alright.
We were about to leave.
Start our lives off right.
Now we're at a stopping point.
And my throat still feels tight.
I want to scream at you.
I want this to all go away.
This new information you told me.
I want to ignore it and make it all okay.
Please someone help me.
Please tell me it's just a dream.
Because today I saw them take you.
They dragged you away from me.
Rochel Oct 29
I don't want to feel this way
At least I think I don't
Why would I want a venom so toxic
It infects my neurons for months?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I hope I don't
Why would I want a sun so bright
It burns into my retina?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I pretend I don't
Why would I want a wave so large
It rolls down my face persistently?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I assume I don't
Why would I want a horrible earthquake
That sends shakes into my heart?
I don't want to feel this way
At least I decide I don't
Why would I want a buzzing bug
That follows me perfusely?

God I call apon you now
To try and help me find
A want to stop feeling
And leave this all behind

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