"nyquill" poems
Nyquil is such a *****
who would have thought cough medicine could make the insides of my eyes itch
it's a shame
who's to blame
I'm only 8
only just learned to spell my name
in cursive
I'm a big girl now.
innocent and my soul is clean but it's so weird
the feeling from this liquid green
mother thinks she's helping me but she's only just creating me
faking sick so she goes to get it
I wasn't being manipulative I just didn't think to ask for it
now I'm downing half the bottle so I can get some kip for school tomorrow
not sure what this does to me but there's nobody else to play with me so I'll just take this and go to sleep
let slip my habit in convo, to this pretty boy at school
thought he'd like a badass
thought he'd know I'm cool
I think I just wanted him to use with me
or explain to me how he's there for me
he's all worried
wants to help me
but I am helping me
the paranoia hits me like a ton of bricks
stupid **** will ruin me
I just wish he could see how the world could really be
I'll never show him, eventually everyone gets a ticket for free
so I decided to hide everything until I'd be old enough to drink
that would fix it for me and then I could come clean
because this is turning into a perpetual need
could manage it with alcohol just have to turn 13
I think I only made it a couple weeks before boredom and loneliness came to get ****** up with me
clever me
NO, **** you
I'm too smart for myself
made sure I grew up in my own prison cell
two sips in either direction and I'd wake up in hell
can't admit who I am because at the time one foot was stuck in a different land
so learn the dance of the broken romance
relationship started
innocence departed
perspective is amazing until you realize there's a selection
perception isn't consistent
doctors should be in prison
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 2:51 PM UTC
if your scared fdont bother
if i was meant to be over
it would already be over
its not from lack of effort
ask the knives in the kitchen
or the advil
or the bottle
or the nyquill
or my father
its going to be slow
and stronger
i am the best in the world
at ******* hating myself
you should have looked at me
so much harder
before you thought you could help
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 12:08 AM UTC