Embrace me oh love
For I know not the feeling
Of warmth
                  nor arms on my back
      Just hold me my love
               for long have i
               lost the mem'ry of
   painlessness
   senselessness
          carelessness
                                relentless...
       eyes on me my love
            rest them on mine
                  that i might see care
    and oh that you might kiss me
           for so have i longed
           the sweet greet
           of grazing lips
                     so fondly
                     found only
               in minstrels sung----
      that of a swan's song.
             so if your love is
             as your tongue doth say
  so must your love be
          and shown in love's ancient way...
       demand the world to stop
       as you summon the stars
                  and let them mingle
                  in the same sky as the sun's
              oh love that you'd show me love
          that i've heard and neved seen once.
   and leave me alone then love...
      since i know not of what happens
          afterward.

Do you ever had that feeling where in you're both feeling lonely and contented at the same time?

I do.

I actually neved regret leaving the old me and actually starting to a new self. But then I realize, I just left the people who are responsible of the pain that I’m feeling and not the ‘old me’. The old me who’s always happy in the morning and messed up at night.

Everything just keeps on coming back and everytime it comes back, I’d remind myself that I want to make everything worth it and hopefully someday I could finally face eveything with a real, genuine smile on my face.