Hey, can you do me a favor?

Let me know once it stopped, okay?

Tell me.

Tell me no matter how much it may hurt me,
tell me once you stop being in love with me.
Let me know when your heart no longer whispers my name.
Tell it to my face,
that it’s over.
I don’t want to hear it from someone else,
please at least have the guts to tell me
that you don’t love me anymore.
I know it sounds pessimistic,
but can you blame me?
We live in a very unpredictable world;
one thing can turn to another within a span of a second.
I don’t want to deal with a heartbreak because I ended up believing that love is all about hearts and flowers. And that love can withstand anything. I don’t believe in forever.
I believe in the now.
See, I can’t promise you these superficial things and vague whatnots.
I can only give you what I have now.

And I don’t expect you to promise me the stars and the moon,
no, don’t give me forever.
Don’t give me something you don’t have.
I don’t want to hope for something that may end up nothing.
Save me from the heartache of believing in love too much.
The sad thing is that we can’t even promise our tomorrow.
We don’t hold the universe in our hands,
we don’t know what will happen next,
we are no seer.

So, here I am, promising you my now
and only asking you the same.

So tell me when you don’t love me anymore.
I want to hear it from your lips with your own voice.
I want to hear the same voice that told me iloveyous,
telling me the idontloveyouanymore.

Tell me once you are slipping away,
but I won’t promise that I will not try to keep you,
because I will,
I am only a human too.
Promise me that no matter how broken I become,
you will walk away,
because you don’t love me anymore.
I don’t want you staying because of pity,
you can walk away with the memories:
I’ll keep what I need,
and you walk away with yours.

I won’t blame you, no, I really won’t.
I will cry, but all the same,
don’t comfort me.
Let me mourn the death of a love I once had.

So,
If ever this shall end…
Please tell me and have the decency to
break my heart properly.

you will regret this and you will regret this and you will regret this

you will think you have it all and then you will remember that you do not have me

YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT ME

you are nothing without me

you are mean mean mean so mean but i am meaner and i will choke you with my absence

the lack of me will strangle you

and i will laugh

and i will laugh

and i will laugh

THE DEVIL LIVES INSIDE MY BODY but only when you are around

i am so mean i am so mean i hope i give you nightmares

i want to hear you scream screaming screaming my name scream my name in agony no one can hear you

YOU SCREAM UPON DEAF EARS

YOU ARE A FOOL YOU ARE A FOOL YOU ARE SUCH A FOOL

i hope your laughter echoes through your empty ribcage i hope the shell of your heart caves in soon i hope the soles of your feet and the souls of your feet are gone gone gone

so mean

so so mean

i am a star no i am a planet no i am a galaxy no i am the universe and i can destroy you when i smile

you are a chapter no a word no a single letter in my book and you do not make me smile

i hate you ihateyouihateyou

IDONTLOVEYOUANYMORE

you did it you did it you broke me i shattered

BUT NO LONGER YOU DIDNT YOU DIDNT

you didn't think i could get back up you didn't you didn't

you didn't think i was stronger than you no no no no NO

I DO NOT NEED YOU BUT BOY OH BOY DO YOU NEED ME i do not need you