In the wake of November,
with summer in slumber,
the men in your head start chatting.

One feels inadequate,
a young boy scorned by a father who mistook rage for love.
"Sometimes I just feel so small."

Another performs,
measuring approval in laughs.
"Laughing at me or with me, it's still about me."

The most dominant smirks,
cigarette in mouth, leather jacket clad,
too cool, too tough, way too cinematic.
"Hey, kiddos."

And in unison they chanted: "We won't face our fears, we won't solve our problems."
Instead they all turned their blue eyes
to a new girl
who, with a camel crush in her eighteen year old hand and
insecurity in her walk,
cannot yet distinguish that there are
many not one.

"Hold me."
"Hold the applause."
"Anytime, honeybaby."

One day in a park or your bunk bed
she'll see
you're too afraid to be you.
After all,
that's why you couldn't love me.

You're my best friend I love you so so much
No matter the distance time marks, your touch
Will always feel like home,
How I live I'm better alone
But you refuse to let me go.
I'm taking you wherever I go.

Eyes like icy-blue lilac that blankly stare,
Arms that hold and wash over my heart
With nothing but care.

Zozo yellowtoothed angel, butterfly that's body floats
Detached from the purple wings that weigh them down,
Echos memories of
Sugary laughter that resembles celebratory shouting

You're the only one that's never doubted me

When I hear my name in your voice I know you love me
I only live to call on yours my little babylove, can't you see?

Without you it's like I'm down with fever,
You're my devine campfire in heartless snow
I wish I could hold you for as close to forever
As mortal time will allow.

You saved my life and you broke my heart
We're like two circuits that never get to start
I only dream of you whenever I'm lonely.

You're the only company I can stand anymore.


If I could spend eternity with you
-even if I hated you on the second day-
I would stay by your side every second.
I hate being held by anyone bar you--
My campfire in the merciless wilderness;
Sometimes I'm so happy in your presence
I feel drunk. Your light shines so bright, babe
I swear sometimes I'd rather talk to you than talk to God,
I don't dance with anyone else, I can't rest easy besides anyone else.
I would give my all just to rest at your feet
-I do not worship you, I'm not obsessed that way
        anymore
Just as you arent-
Justifiably so
Yet I love you so much more than I ever have before.

You're the only love I have left anymore.

Too naive to look after ourselves
Too loving to let our hearts go to waste,
Zozo yellowtoothed angel,
butterfly that's body floats distant
From purple wings that bare scars
From stitchless wounds...

Too much time together love's bound to die just as it's bound to grow.
You do what you can to get by and never let your weakness show.
But when you're nearby nothing else has to matter anymore.
Babylove you're my other half and I'm never going to let you go.