whatifineverknoweventhoughitried
itwhatifitallfallsapartrightinfr­ontofme
icantcomprehendevenifitsexplained
righttomyfaceicantrecip­rocatemyfeel-
-ingsforyouitsjusttoohard FULL STOP.

receptorial, over and under again

whatifyoudontremembermeevenwith
allididimstillaspeckinyour­everlargereality
somymindisfilledwithyouonlyyou
onlythinkingofyou­andineverwant
toletyougokeepyouinside FULL STOP.

everlargerealityeverlargereality

doyoufeeltheseemotionssw­elling
upinsidecanyoutellwhatimthinking
orisitjustachainofthought­satrainofideas
garbledrunningatyoulikeadeer
caughtinatrucksheadli­ghtsbut DASH-

why why why cant i be why why why

whataboutallthesearbitraryideas
thatihaveibelongtoyouandyouo­nly
icantsaywhybutyourebeautifuliwant
youyouyouyouyouaremineminea­nd
mineforeverandevereverever FULL STOP.

brace for impact brace for impact

keepyouinsidesafeinsidewideawake
andalivewecouldstayliket­hisdoyoulikethis
orisitkindadifferentdoyouhave
adifferentopinioni­triedsohardso
staystaystaywhereyouareso FULL STOP.

dont go away please stay stay stay

whywhywhyitreatedyousowell
whywhywhyikeptyousafeinsidejustf­or
youyouyouaremineminemine
whywhywhyarethesethoughtsinsidemyhead­
getoutgetout get out. stay AND?

hatehatehate i hatehatehate

willthesepillsfixmeorwilltheybreak
mefillmewithregr­etneverknownevertried
likethepomegraniteseedstheygo
downmythroatt­houghtsthinking
ofthemomentyouleavemebut HOLD ON,

too late too late too late too late

isaitallsoemptythereisnothinglefttohold
ontotogetagripalsur­facesboundbybricks
slipperylikeaneelsoelvenpillsinicantfeel
memys­elfandijustthinkingof
youyouyouholdondont WAIT-

waitwaitwait, waitwaitwait

leavemealone, dont, leavemealone,
dont, leavemealone, dont,
leave me alone, dont, leave me alone dont
dont, dontdontstopstopstopstopnomore
nomorenomorestopstop DONT STOP…

awake, awake, awake, dont go away

nevergoneawaygoneawrylikeatrainoffitstracks
snapcracklepopt­hesecracksinreality
takemeoffthesedrugstheymakeme
nothingandanyth­ing, everythingelse
everythingandanythingbutnothing INSIDE

hey, hey, hey, dont run away

imbackagainsocomebackbacktomestay
staydontrunawaypleaseplea­se
stayyouaremyonlyifthereisnothingleft
butmethanaspeckisprettybi­gsodont
dontdontrunawayplease DASH-

great big speck great big speck

maybetheproblemismeimightneedto
stopandthinkthatmightmakem­enormal
normalnormaliwanttobenormaliwanttobe
like jack, like trevor, like whoamiwhoami
whatismynamewhoisthis BUT;

thisismethisismethisismethisisme

withoutmewhatismebutahusk­ofskin
veinsfilledwithadrenalinehaveimessedup
haveisinnednotimeto­repentgenerational
defectsinsanenotnormal, i want to be normal
stopandtakeabreath, this is FULL STOP.