i know he's not mine
has never been mine

but i wanna be his favorite
the kind of girl he'll never forget
i wanna be the kind of girl
that you can't help but regret
i know i'm nothing special
just another ex
but godfuckingdammit
i wanna be the best

always fighting that urge for control
the urge to break a heart and hold it just out of reach
pull people in and then push them back
keep them just far enough, so they cant help but stay
without ever touching me, or breaking my heart
and turning out more and more
empty, angry, painful people
just. like. me.

I have given you everything
All my time
My thoughts
My words
My heart
And you aren't even there
I'm ready to ******* shoot up
Some ****** tennis court
Not that I ever would
Godfuckingdammit
It is unacceptable for you to do this to me
Because despite what I've
Showcased in the past
I am far different than I once was
When you first met me
You have to understand
I will not be spending
Three ******* months chasing
Your cheating loser ***
Because as much as I have
And still do
Love you
I will not be that girl again
So darling,
It's time to ******* man up
Because you're really ******* me off

id grown so used to blatant disrespect and youdontdeservemore
to suckmydickbitch and bendovernow
i finally quit looking for love
and holyshitlookwhatifound
you already hurt me once but hey we all know i thrive on heartache
it's been 7 days and dontyoudare tell me im stupid
maybe its howyoulookatme
maybe its your body and cocklikeapornstar
maybe its because youreahippy
and lord knows i hate mainstream
im crazy about you already
godfuckingdammit youre not replying and i am insane
youre a terrible kisser
youre nowhere near wealthy
youre intelligence has no chance of surpassing my own
(obviously- i know better than to date crazy)
i am falling
and babyimfallinghard
i smell you everywhere i go
yes i know thats creepy
did i mention im obsessed