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Nigel Morgan Dec 2013
A Tale for the Mid-Winter Season after the Mural by Carl Larrson

On the shortest day I wake before our maids from the surrounding farms have converged on Sundborn. Greta lives with us so she will be asleep in that deep slumber only girls of her age seem to own. Her tiny room has barely more than a bed and a chest for her clothes. There is my first painting of her on the wall, little more a sketch, but she was entranced, at seeing herself so. To the household she is a maid who looks after me and my studio,  though she is a literate, intelligent girl, city-bred from Gamla Stan but from a poor home, a widowed mother, her late father a drunkard.  These were my roots, my beginning, exactly. But her eyes already see a world beyond Sundborn. She covets postcards from my distant friends: in Paris, London, Jean in South America, and will arrange them on my writing desk, sometimes take them to her room at night to dream in the candlelight. I think this summer I shall paint her, at my desk, reading my cards, or perhaps writing her own. The window will be open and a morning breeze will make the flowers on the desk tremble.

Karin sleeps too, a desperate sleep born of too much work and thought and interruption. These days before Christmas put a strain on her usually calm disposition. The responsibilities of our home, our life, the constant visitors, they weigh upon her, and dispel her private time. Time in her studio seems impossible. I often catch her poised to disappear from a family coming-together. She is here, and then gone, as if by magic. With the older children home from their distant schools, and Suzanne arrived from England just yesterday morning, they all cannot do without lengthy conferences. They know better than disturb me. Why do you think there is a window set into my studio door? So, if I am at my easel there should be no knock to disturb. There is another reason, but that is between Karin and I.

This was once a summer-only house, but over the years we have made it our whole-year home. There was much attention given to making it snug and warm. My architect replaced all the windows and all the doors and there is this straw insulation between the walls. Now, as I open the curtains around my bed, I can see my breath float out into the cool air. When, later, I descend to my studio, the stove, damped down against the night, when opened and raddled will soon warm the space. I shall draw back the heavy drapes and open the wooden shutters onto the dark land outside. Only then I will stand before my current painting: *Brita and the Sleigh
.

Current!? I have been working on this painting intermittently for five years, and Brita is no longer the Brita of this picture, though I remember her then as yesterday. It is a picture of a winter journey for a six-year-old, only that journey is just across the yard to the washhouse. Snow, frost, birds gathered in the leafless trees, a sun dog in the sky, Brita pushing her empty sledge, wearing fur boots, Lisbeth’s old coat, and that black knitted hat made by old Anna. It is the nearest I have come to suggesting the outer landscape of this place. I bring it out every year at this time so I can check the light and the shadows against what I see now, not what I remember seeing then. But there will be a more pressing concern for me today, this shortest day.

Since my first thoughts for the final mural in my cycle for the Nationalmuseum I have always put this day aside, whatever I might be doing, wherever I may be. I pull out my first sketches, that book of imaginary tableaux filled in a day and a night in my tiny garden studio in Grez, thinking of home, of snow, the mid-winter, feeling the extraordinary power and shake of Adam of Bremen’s description of 10th C pre-Christian Uppsala, written to describe how barbaric and immoral were the practices and religion of the pagans, to defend the fragile position of the Christian church in Sweden at the time. But as I gaze at these rough beginnings made during those strange winter days in my rooms at the Hotel Chevilon, I feel myself that twenty-five year old discovering my artistic vision, abandoning oils for the flow and smudge of watercolour, and then, of course, Karin. We were part of the Swedish colony at Grez-sur-Loing. Karin lived with the ladies in Pension Laurent, but was every minute beside me until we found our own place, to be alone and be together, in a cupboard of a house by the river, in Marlotte.

Everyone who painted en-plein-air, writers, composers, they all flocked to Grez just south of Fontainebleau, to visit, sometimes to stay. I recall Strindberg writing to Karin after his first visit: It was as if there were no pronounced shadows, no hard lines, the air with its violet complexion is almost always misty; and I painting constantly, and against the style and medium of the time. How the French scoffed at my watercolours, but my work sold immediately in Stockholm. . . and Karin, tall, slim, Karin, my muse, my lover, my model, her boy-like figure lying naked (but for a hat) in the long grass outside my studio. We learned each other there, the technique of bodies in intimate closeness, the way of no words, the sharing of silent thoughts, together on those soft, damp winter days when our thoughts were of home, of Karin’s childhood home at Sundborn. I had no childhood thoughts I wanted to return to, but Karin, yes. That is why we are here now.

In Grez-sur-Loing, on a sullen December day, mist lying on the river, our garden dead to winter, we received a visitor, a Swedish writer and journalist travelling with a very young Italian, Mariano Fortuny, a painter living in Paris, and his mentor the Spaniard Egusquiza. There was a woman too who Karin took away, a Parisienne seamstress I think, Fortuny’s lover. Bayreuth and Wagner, Wagner, Wagner was all they could talk about. Of course Sweden has its own Nordic Mythology I ventured. But where is it? What is it? they cried, and there was laughter and more mulled wine, and then talk again of Wagner.

When the party left I realized there was something deep in my soul that had been woken by talk of the grandeur and scale of Wagner’s cocktail of German and Scandinavian myths and folk tales. For a day and night I sketched relentlessly, ransacking my memory for those old tales, drawing strong men and stalwart, flaxen-haired women in Nordic dress and ornament. But as a new day presented itself I closed my sketch book and let the matter drop until, years later, in a Stockholm bookshop I chanced upon a volume in Latin by Adam of Bremen, his Gesta Hammaburgensis Ecclesiae Pontificum, the most famous source to pagan ritual practice in Sweden. That cold winter afternoon in Grez returned to me and I felt, as I had then, something stir within me, something missing from my comfortable world of images of home and farm, family and the country life.

Back in Sundborn this little volume printed in the 18th C lay on my desk like a question mark without a sentence. My Latin was only sufficient to get a gist, but the gist was enough. Here was the story of the palace of Uppsala, the great centre of the pre-Christian pagan cults that brought us Odin and Freyr. I sought out our village priest Dag Sandahl, a good Lutheran but who regularly tagged Latin in his sermons. Yes, he knew the book, and from his study bookshelf brought down an even earlier copy than my own. And there and then we sat down together and read. After an hour I was impatient to be back in my studio and draw, draw these extraordinary images this text brought to life unbidden in my imagination. But I did not leave until I had persuaded Pastor Sandahl to agree to translate the Uppsala section of the Adam of Bremen’s book, and just before Christmas that year, on the day before the Shortest Day, he delivered his translation to my studio. He would not stay, but said I should read the passages about King Domalde and his sacrifice at the Winter Solstice. And so, on the day of the Winter Solstice, I did.

This people have a widely renowned sanctuary called Uppsala.

By this temple is a very large tree with extending branches. It is always green, both in winter and in summer. No one knows what kind of tree this is. There is also a spring there, where the heathens usually perform their sacrificial rites. They throw a live human being into the spring. If he does not resurface, the wishes of the people will come true.

The Temple is girdled by a chain of gold that hangs above the roof of the building and shines from afar, so that people may see it from a distance when they approach there. The sanctuary itself is situated on a plain, surrounded by mountains, so that the form a theatre.

It is not far from the town of Sigtuna. This sanctuary is completely covered with golden ornaments. There, people worship the carved idols of three gods: Thor, the most powerful of them, has his throne in the middle of the hall, on either side of him, Odin and Freyr have their seats. They have these functions: “Thor,” they say, “rules the air, he rules thunder and lightning, wind and rain, good weather and harvests. The other, Odin, he who rages, he rules the war and give courage to people in their battle against enemies. The third is Freyr, he offers to mortals lust and peace and happiness.” And his image they make with a very large phallus. Odin they present armed, the way we usually present Mars, while Thor with the scepter seems to resemble Jupiter. As gods they also worship some that have earlier been human. They give them immortality for the sake of their great deeds, as we may read in Vita sancti Ansgarii that they did with King Eirik.

For all these gods have particular persons who are to bring forward the sacrificial gifts of the people. If plague and famine threatens, they offer to the image of Thor, if the matter is about war, they offer to Odin, but if a wedding is to be celebrated, they offer to Freyr. And every ninth year in Uppsala a great religious ceremony is held that is common to people from all parts of Sweden.”
Snorri also relates how human sacrifice began in Uppsala, with the sacrifice of a king.

Domalde took the heritage after his father Visbur, and ruled over the land. As in his time there was great famine and distress, the Swedes made great offerings of sacrifice at Upsal. The first autumn they sacrificed oxen, but the succeeding season was not improved thereby. The following autumn they sacrificed men, but the succeeding year was rather worse. The third autumn, when the offer of sacrifices should begin, a great multitude of Swedes came to Upsal; and now the chiefs held consultations with each other, and all agreed that the times of scarcity were on account of their king Domalde, and they resolved to offer him for good seasons, and to assault and **** him, and sprinkle the stall of the gods with his blood. And they did so.


There it was, at the end of Adam of Bremen’s description of Uppsala, this description of King Domalde upon which my mural would be based. It is not difficult to imagine, or rather the event itself can be richly embroidered, as I have over the years made my painting so. Karin and I have the books of William Morris on our shelves and I see little difference between his fixation on the legends of the Arthur and the Grail. We are on the cusp here between the pagan and the Christian.  What was Christ’s Crucifixion but a self sacrifice: as God in man he could have saved himself but chose to die for Redemption’s sake. His blood was not scattered to the fields as was Domalde’s, but his body and blood remains a continuing symbol in our right of Communion.

I unroll the latest watercolour cartoon of my mural. It is almost the length of this studio. Later I will ask Greta to collect the other easels we have in the house and barn and then I shall view it properly. But for now, as it unrolls, my drama of the Winter Solstice comes alive. It begins on from the right with body of warriors, bronze shields and helmets, long shafted spears, all set against the side of Uppsala Temple and more distant frost-hoared trees. Then we see the King himself, standing on a sled hauled by temple slaves. He is naked as he removes the furs in which he has travelled, a circuit of the temple to display himself to his starving people. In the centre, back to the viewer, a priest-like figure in a red cloak, a dagger held for us to see behind his back. Facing him, in druidic white, a high priest holds above his head a gold pagan monstrance. To his left there are white cloaked players of long, straight horns, blue cloaked players of the curled horns, and guiding the shaft of the sled a grizzled shaman dressed in the skins and furs of animals. The final quarter of my one- day-to-be-a-mural unfolds to show the women of temple and palace writhing in gestures of grief and hysteria whilst their queen kneels prostate on the ground, her head to the earth, her ladies ***** behind her. Above them all stands the forever-green tree whose origin no one knows.

Greta has entered the studio in her practiced, silent way carrying coffee and rolls from the kitchen. She has seen Midvinterblot many times, but I sense her gaze of fascination, yet again, at the figure of the naked king. She remembers the model, the sailor who came to stay at Kartbacken three summers ago. He was like the harpooner Queequeg in Moby ****. A tattooed man who was to be seen swimming in Toftan Lake and walking bare-chested in our woods. A tall, well-muscled, almost silent man, whom I patiently courted to be my model for King Dolmade. I have a book of sketches of him striding purposefully through the trees, the tattooed lines on his shoulders and chest like deep cuts into his body. This striding figure I hid from the children for some time, but from Greta that was impossible. She whispered to me once that when she could not have my substantial chest against her she would imagine the sailor’s, imagine touching and following his tattooed lines. This way, she said, helped her have respite from those stirrings she would so often feel for me. My painting, she knew, had stirred her fellow maids Clara and Solveig. Surely you know this, she had said, in her resolute and direct city manner. I have to remember she is the age of my eldest, who too must hold such thoughts and feelings. Karin dislikes my sailor king and wishes I would not hide the face of his distraught queen.

Today the sunrise is at 9.0, just a half hour away, and it will set before 3.0pm. So, after this coffee I will put on my boots and fur coat, be well scarfed and hatted (as my son Pontus would say) and walk out onto my estate. I will walk east across the fields towards Spardasvvägen. The sky is already waiting for the sun, but waits without colour, hardly even a tinge of red one might expect.

I have given Greta her orders to collect every easel she can find so we can take Midvinterblot off the floor and see it in all its vivid colour and form. In February I shall begin again to persuade the Nationalmuseum to accept this work. We have a moratorium just now. I will not accept their reasoning that there is no historical premise for such a subject, that such a scene has no place in a public gallery. A suggestion has been made that the Historiska museet might house it. But I shall not think of this today.

Karin is here, her face at the studio window beckons entry. My Darling, yes, it is midwinter’s day and I am dressing to greet the solstice. I will dress, she says, to see Edgar who will be here in half an hour to discuss my designs for this new furniture. We will be lunching at noon. Know you are welcome. Suzanne is talking constantly of England, England, and of course Oxford, this place of dreaming spires and good looking boys. We touch hands and kiss. I sense the perfume of sleep, of her bed.

Outside I must walk quickly to be quite alone, quite apart from the house, in the fields, alone. It is on its way: this light that will bathe the snowed-over land and will be my promise of the year’s turn towards new life.

As I walk the drama of Midvinterblot unfolds in a confusion of noise, the weeping of women, the physical exertions of the temple slaves, the priests’ incantations, the riot of horns, and then suddenly, as I stand in this frozen field, there is silence. The sun rises. It stagge
To see images of the world of Sundborn and Carl Larrson (including Mitvinterblot) see http://www.clg.se/encarl.aspx
Sebastian May 2015
Solskenet verkar
bara stanna för en dag
Värmen drar sig snabbt tillbaka
och ger plats åt en välbekant kyla

Som har satt sina spår
under alla dessa år

På väg mot nya skyar
Ändå samma blåa färg
Jag bosätter mig här
och ger plats åt samma gamla tankar

Som har satt sina spår
under alla dessa år

Regnmolnen verkar
favorisera mitt hem
Jag skulle aldrig nånsin kommit hit
men det fanns plats åt samma gråa skurar

Som har satt sina spår
under alla dessa år
swedish poem by me
Qualyxian Quest Aug 2020
The wrong kind of silence
Is deepest pain

The sweet southern sunlight
And grey day rain

Make me miss
Gamla Stan again

Scifi bookstore
Malmo train
Wake up in Östermalm,     south to Gamla Stan.
I walk,
it is a cool day with albumen clouds,
rivers of snow gloss the streets ecru.

- Meet outside the bookstore;
Pippi Långstrump grins at me from behind glass.
The blue and yellow of the Nordic cross
prods out from a shop,     primrose-skin buildings,
streets riddled with syllables,
Västerlånggatan,     Tyska Brinken,
graffiti a ****** siren on the walls.

- ’75 the first time here,     Waterloo a year before,
birth of the famous foursome
to karaoke machines from Södermalm to south Japan.
And again,     new millennium,
a second time in ’16 where love was love
and peace was peace.

- Practise the numbers.     Seven is sju,
my mouth producing rare noise,
a wispy word between show and swear.

- We walk.
Splashes of island and butterscotch-haired teens.
A girl hums a Melfest song.
I toss a Sverigedemokraterna leaflet in the bin.

- The waitress could be Lisbeth and AVICII’s playing
and isn’t it beautiful,     you,     and this,
where we have found ourselves.
NOTE: Each second stanza is supposed to be indented from the right hand side, but HP is not having it. The first stanza should also begin with a dash.
Written: 2018/19.
Explanation: A poem that was part of my MFA Creative Writing manuscript, in which I wrote poems about cities that have staged the Eurovision Song Contest, or taken the name of a song and written my own piece inspired by the title. I have received a mark for this body of work now, so am sharing the poems here.
Josephine Lnd Aug 2013
so here I sit alone in our apartment
while he is in his childhood town, cleaning out his dads
cleaning out the drunken chaos and the remains of a life
and tries to air out the smell of death
he is forced to clean out the remains of
a periodic alcoholic's liqour soaked period which ended in the definite end of it all
i'm stuck at work while he is forced to run to the funeral agency, the bank
  and an apartment whose walls could tell a story
that would make the ancient greeks' tragedies fade in comparison

he is forced to clean up after his absent dads' death,
a dad who was never there, whose resumé not only includes
the leaving of a son, but also the leaving of life,
all this while i'm looking for washing machines online


//


så här sitter jag ensam i vår lägenhet,
medan han är i barndomsstaden och rensar ur sin pappas
städar bort fyllekaoset och resterna av ett liv
och försöker vädra ut lukten av död
han tvingas städa bort resterna av
en periodares alkohol-indränkta period som slutade i det slutliga slutet på allt
jag är fast på jobbet när han tvingas springa till begravningsbyrån, banken
och en lägenhet vars väggar skulle kunna berätta en historia
som skulle få de gamla grekernas tragedier att blekna i jämförelse

han tvingas städa upp efter sin frånvarande pappas död,
en pappa som aldrig var där, vars cv inte bara innefattar
ett lämnande av en son, utan också lämnandet av ett liv
medans jag letar tvättmaskiner på nätet
Qualyxian Quest Nov 2020
Italy was almost - almost -
Too beautiful
The churches, the sun, the art

Something in me delights
In both Stockholm and Helsinki
(And Oxford's twilight too)

C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkien
Called it The Idea of Northerness

But not, for me, in ice and snow
And winter
Though I do love those too

Rather, Stockholm in sunshine
Gamla Stan, the medieval part

And memories of something lost
But remembered by Father Greeley:


Wherever the Catholic sun does shine
There's cheer and laughter
And good red wine
At least I've always found it so

Benedicamus Domino!
Qualyxian Quest Dec 2021
The basketball game was fun
Hustle, hit the boards
Green and yellow stands
Practice has rewards

I know I'll be forgotten
But I do not forget
My mother was kind caring
And when the sun does set

I pray I go down grateful
Not fearful of the night
Nothing lasts forever
Thank you for the light

     Stockholm: Pretty city sight.
Qualyxian Quest Sep 2023
Stockholm in the summer
    Sci-fi books and bikes
                 Tak
Qualyxian Quest Aug 2022
I admit I like cathedrals
Especially in snow
Hagia Sophia
But born too late I know

Grateful for my sons
In my solitude
Did what I did
Now I do not intrude

1 is the loneliest number
And a little peace
Hello Gamla Stan
Farewell Ancient Greece

           Time release.
Qualyxian Quest Jan 2021
madness in the human realm
but rainfall ya'll all night

the Americans so ignorant
things don't work out right

once we cycled Stockholm
trains across Taiwan

Vienna aglow in snow
I miss Gamla Stan

a brief little life
then forever gone
Qualyxian Quest Sep 2022
American women are dishonest
Just like American men
What they want most is money
The rest is just pretend

Tokyo in the rain
Reno in the snow
It never does come clear
We die and never know

Florida has the Trumpfucks
Boston has baked beans
When I was in Virginia
Read to the students Things Not Seen

No desire for Chicago
L. A. or New York City
With my son in Baltimore
Stockholm is quite pretty

                  Tak.
Qualyxian Quest Dec 2023
In love with her since 15
But too scared to tell her
In my solitude
2 green lights

Tired, bored, lonely
Last lone
American
Night.


                 Swedish flight
Gorba Mar 2020
Det var en gång
En man bestämde sig
att lämna allt bakom sig
För att söka framgång

Det var en gång
En man åkte till en främmande stad
Bara för att han hade tillstånd
Och hört om den på en verkstad

Det var en gång
En man hamnade
I en värld mer mystisk
Än han trodde

Det var en gång
En man som försökte
Vänja sig vid kulturen
Hamnade vilsen

Det var en gång
En man tänkte sig
Att åka tillbaka
Varifrån han kom

Det var en gång
En man föredrog
Att stanna lite längre
För att utforska mer och bättre

Det började som en saga
Man vet inte riktigt hur eller när det kommer sluta
Men mannen förväntar sig
Att i framtiden kunna dela med sig

Av att han levde lycklig i flesta av sina dagar
Med sina gamla och nya kompisar
Kanske med några barn
Men troligen med kärlek.
Qualyxian Quest Oct 2023
Just a little diary
Not great timeless art
I like Dash Incredible
More than Napoleon Blown Apart

Satellite Beach, Florida
Not much goin' on
San Francisco Zen
Quiet Gamla Stan

I've traveled a bit, am lonely
Our politics is the Abyss
Gratitude for waitresses
Embers ending kiss

               San Diego!
Qualyxian Quest Mar 2023
Un Escritor, Un Escritor
Richard in Mexico City
Me in Gamla Stan
Where the women are so pretty

Marguerite Porete
Definitely not a fake
Maybe she will let ...
Nothin' but love to make

Un Escritor, Un Escritor
Jeovanni from Honduras
David from El Salvador
Green lights still allure us

Mandy is my bartender
Dino plays Brandy
European licorice
Carmel. Monterrey. Gandhi.

                    Mohandas!
Qualyxian Quest Jul 2020
Gamla Stan scifi
Stockholm sunlit sky
   Hey Hey my my
Qualyxian Quest Apr 2023
If I could
I would get on trains
Ride ride ride ride ride

I got the inner torment
Some kind of driving ride
Inside

Melville, Markson, Emily
Scifi bookstore Gamla Stan
Can't quite find her
Road goes ever on

I've known Mother Asia
Cruel but she can cook
Actually an artist
Jane Austen books

2 outs in the 7th
He's on the Chicago Cubs
I'm at Granny Murray's
And a couple other Irish pubs


               Persistence.
Patience with myself
Just try to do my best
Long term game
As I take my rest

Dublin's Book of Kells
Sci-fi Gamla Stan
We are the Witherells
Slowly journey on

           3 deer. 1 fawn.
Qualyxian Quest Feb 2023
I pray for John
  Courage on
   Gamla Stan

       Amen.
Qualyxian Quest Aug 2022
I sleep with the lights on now
I sense the endless dark
Please protect my oldest friend
Sacramento Mark

Venice and Istanbul
Will I ever go?
Portland's Japanese garden
Kyoto aglow in snow

Beauty is a blessing
Science marches dawn
Snow falling on cedars
Scifi Gamla Stan

Beauty doesn't last
Young women become old
Sent my letter to you
Truth had to be told

           Origami
        Florida Fold
Qualyxian Quest Feb 2021
Mexico in my stomach
Japan in my mind
Taiwan in my heart
He said, Seek and ye shall find

The road is roam and ramble
The road goes ever on
I-5 back to Seattle
Flight to Gamla Stan

          beyond
Qualyxian Quest Aug 2023
tired and unsure
memories of Taiwan
the past becomes a blur
bring me to Gamla Stan

can't quite escape
These United States
San Francisco, California
At the Dragon Gates

I eat a little salmon
Drink a little tea
All my friends, all my friends
Have forgotten me

Libraries are quiet
The ocean's pounding roar
I saw Paul McCartney
Once in Baltimore

           Lenore!
Qualyxian Quest Dec 2022
In the mid 90s
Wrote to Jesuit Walter Ong
Baltimore in 46
Am I late along?

First day of school
Mr. Harry Wong
Taipei Confucian temple
Drums, robes, gong

Confucius at GMU
I say a prayer for Taiwan
Beauty Baltic Sea
Scifi Gamla Stan

Gunmetal gray
An email? Susansan.
Jokic throws the lob
Hither and anon

       2 bucks. 1 fawn.
Qualyxian Quest Mar 2023
Si
Madison and Mason si
But Qualyxian the Quest
Rendezvous with Destiny
Gonna do my level best

Xiao gives me Chinese food
I say xie xie ni
Mr. Bill Porter
Fo Guang Shan to see

Lunch at Cinco de Mayo
Alex in Tucson
What the hell's a Hoya?
We in Gamla Stan

Mason in the CAA
Colonial Assassination Association
On my knees to pray
Plus a little echolocation

         Mr. Wayne: Good luck.
Qualyxian Quest Apr 2021
It's a meaningless world. I know it is.
Still I do fight on.

Beckett Bridge, Gamla Stan
My 2 friends named John

I've been going postal
My weapons are won words

Albert Camus, I pray to you
The saint of the Absurd

                Rebellion!
Qualyxian Quest Apr 2023
Slowly guacamole
7 37 72
More than one life only
Bangkok Buddha blue

Patience. Exoplanets.
Hand on the baton
Science fiction movies
Sci Fi Gamla Stan

Refried bean burritos
Vegetarian summer rolls
University of Toledo
Cool Grey City goals

                Revolutions!
Qualyxian Quest Jan 2023
The American nation began in genocide
Slave labor all around
The Albino Whale is white
I am both lost and found

I've been to Copenhagen
Dear Soren Kierkegaard
Basketball is easy
Sexuality is hard

Went to Tivoli Gardens
Took my two young sons
Fireworks last night
On Taipei 101

Train back to Stockholm
Walked around Gamla Stan
Science fiction bookstore
Aliens anon?

             3 deer. 1 fawn.
Qualyxian Quest Jul 2023
Little pieces of hope
In a world of vast despair
Small steps only
Highwater Everywhere

She's gentle, kind, caring
A diamond in the rough
Jesus wasn't humble
No, no. He was tough.

America is Ignorance
But I like Johnny Cash
Bodies in the furnace
Humans turned to ash

Stockholm was so pretty
Scifi Gamla Stan
Charming Uppsala Cathedral
A little garlic naan

                         Tak
Qualyxian Quest Mar 2023
The isolation is frightening at times
I reach out but do not reach
You should see the girls
Who live in Satellite Beach!

Shared privacy, One love
Hablo un pequito Espanyol
Vegetarian burritos
80s Rock n' Roll

I like those Taoist Immortals
I climbed Yangmingshan
Thin Red Line
Scifi Gamla Stan

The marriage is Disaster
But she gave me the gift of travel
The World's Greatest Detective
The Riddler too unravels

All the King's Men at JMU
She calls him Jackie Bird
I rebel; therefore we exist
One man against the Absurd

                    Word!
Qualyxian Quest Dec 2021
Workin' through my issues
Time tick tocks on
Me in Uppsala Cathedral
We in Gamla Stan

Modernity means meaningless
But lots of food and drink
Lots of chaotic wars
Makes me kinda think

2 weeks in Japan
Bus rides in Dublin
3 days in Vienna
Psych wards a-troublin'

Wedding in Tel Aviv
Roommate in Hong Kong
Teaching school in Reno
America long gone wrong

                Dylan songs!
Qualyxian Quest Jun 2023
I would like to be important
To the English language
I was once an English teacher
Fairfax. Reno. Taipei.

Oxford at twilight
Dublin bus
Gamla Stan
San Francisco. xie xie

Long live Lina and Doon!
Egress
Awakening
Californ I A

Birdsong
Whalesong
Ping Pong
Shakespeare play

                   Cordelia!
Qualyxian Quest Apr 2023
Pretty desperate desire for influence at times
Reality is very little
In my solitude
Si Samut Prakan

Science fiction bookstore
Cycling by the Baltic
Tak tak tak
Tak Gamla Stan

Rainy Night in Georgia
In Savannah we drank tea
Adonis in Atlanta
Yea verily

                  3773
Qualyxian Quest Nov 2022
Plurality and Ambiguity
Gonna be some shadow falls
Tryin' to get to Florida
Dodgin' them Georgia laws

Plurality and Darkness
Followed by a truck
I loved living in Dublin
A little Irish luck

Plurality and mystery
In ways I can't control
Country, pop, the Blues
80s rock n' roll

Plurality within me
Ambiguity too
Gamla Stan, Thich Nhat Hanh
Dear dear Tienmu

                 Oui. Parlez Vous?
Qualyxian Quest Nov 2021
Both meaningful and meaningless
I walk my so-called life
Protection for my sons
From the chaos of my wife

Solitude is peaceful
And lonely as can be
Once we 5 were cycling
By the Baltic Sea

America is agony
Violence and hate
Tea in San Francisco
Go the Dragon Gate

I ride Downbound Trains
Mind on yon Taiwan
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Sweden's Gamla Stan

        Once upon...
Qualyxian Quest Feb 2023
Si.
Madison and Mason si
But Qualyxian the Quest
Rendezvous with Destiny
Gonna do my level best

Xiao gives me Chinese food
I say xie xie ni
Mr. Bill Porter
Fo Guang Shan to see

Lunch at Cinco de Mayo
Alex in Tucson
What the hell's a Hoya?
We in Gamla Stan

Mason in the CAA
Colonial Assassination Association
On my knees to pray
Plus a little echolocation

         Mr. Wayne: Good luck.
Qualyxian Quest Mar 2023
Regrets and tired and lonely
I liked Gamla Stan
Little sci fi bookstore
Tak tick tock tak

I almost scare myself silly
At the edge of paranoid
Listen to some music
Take a little walk

My dad so good to me
Keeps me still afloat
I said Michael Jordan
Calyx said Legoat

Time is not a line
Dylan sang an Ocean
Help me local motion
Green eyes new blue note

          Democratic Vote!
Qualyxian Quest Mar 2023
The critics don't really understand
You can't translate the poetry into prose
And so it goes
And so it goes

I wrote to Daniel Berrigan
Seattle, JVC
He kindly wrote me back
A good way said he to me

I hope that he was right
In Berkeley Thich Nhat Hanh
Buddhamind in Bangkok
Sunlight Gamla Stan

I do pray to the statues
Do not now attend Mass
Must be women priests
Thus it comes to pass

       Suzy Sassafrass

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