I cant find whats missing
Spending my time wandering grey streets
Slipping over cobbled blocks and broken pipes
No destination.
No idea  where to go
How am i to find whats missing  when i thought i held it so Close

I was opinionated.  Now ive lost direction
Missed conections
Defelected questions
I procrastinated myself into lonelyness
Theirs no deception

what is it even worth to have friends when its like a scale that is a weight on both hands.
it seems like you have to have the morals of pure ideas that make your every choice.
when u get ****** into a life where all you have lost. when u chose to go out with your friends you have thrown away your family losing conections that throw away the love you never wanted to throw away.  

the choices i have fallen victim to has changed me down deep in side.
there are so many regrets i wish i could take back.

friends have made life fun but it takes away tho heart of love.

have you just wanted to just disconect and erase your identity and just start over.

my life is so insane that i am so worn out that i dont know how i can keep going or i should quit trying and drift with the crowd to see where i end up.

the friends that are good leave behind a positive impact but the ones who **** up your time your life leave the negitivity that spinns out of control like a vinal record that skips endlessly.


can you escape or drown and lose your self in all the ******* ******* of self hate.


its a weight that spinns out of control when u lose your grip and end up some where u cant escape like a closet that  just leaves the huanted image of who you really became when u gave into a new group of friends.

some people are greedy
devoured by hate and being greedy
all they care about is the money they earn
they don't care about how the work is performed
they **** to smell the fresh smell of money and glory
but is glory money
is money the key
money is just a way for happiness but never will it be the key
helping people and saving lives making others happy makes you happy
praying to God everyday and strengthening your connection with him is being happy
hugging your wife and children everyday and telling them how much you love them is happiness.
think of the good things in life and think on the positive things
don't let the demon take over your brain and make you his slave
be the person you want to be and not what people force you to be
be happy with yourself and what you have got cause that's all you need
people say life is hard well yes it is but you can choose to live it happy if you hold on to what's dear in your life .
prsying to God and making conections with him is being happy

too many lines
ideas flodding right and up
nothing makes sense
and yet everything does
keep on running
stagnant but permanent
eternal yet mundane
freezing but boiling
Is it a fever of the soul?
unable to express itself
resolves to believing and principles and statements and ideas, finding conections where there should be none