"chrysalids" poems
Ask him about the first time we met.
He will tell you,
eyes bright,
that I made him laugh
so hard
that his ribcage cracked open,
releasing a generation of butterflies
he kept hidden for so long
I may never know
who hatched them there.
Ask him about the songs I sing.
He will tell you,
in a familiar tune,
that I make pythons dance.
My vocal chords are marionettes
that turn ballerinas into puppets
whose feet never touch the ground.
Ask him about my bedroom.
He will tell you,
counting off of his fingers,
that the shelves are stacked and rickety
the vanities empty
and the lamp, a glowing green,
casts shadows of butterflies.
He will tell you that there are two broken clocks
under glow in the dark stars
and a table of sketches
eraser dust
and matchsticks.
Ask him about the sketches.
Ask him about the shelves.
Ask him about my poetry.
A muted mouth with a severed tongue will tell you
that there are hundreds,
written on the insides of my palms
But they've been caged fists
since my heart first opened
and there is not a single joke
that could make me laugh
hard enough
to set free the crushed chrysalids
that I've been holding
since I discovered butterflies.
Aug 7, 2015
Aug 7, 2015 at 12:53 AM UTC
must i long for
the scarlet rain
that
did not phlebotomise,
did not secrete
from
codeine clouds,
if the milk would be spilt.
must i conceive ignus fatuus
colourcasts from the television
inside a mouth
that caterwauls
faces of static and pollen
and Klaus Nomi masks
as if i were lobotomised
eating flowers fingered out of
the flesh of the brain
carnations would not exist.
i do not want to believe
the promise
of lovers were
merely yous' and
eyes'.
no such world is eyeless.
or any less without eyes.
become my chalk and bones.
i want to believe
humanity
is a defined mass
of bathypelagic insects
sleeping in chrysalids
longing to be
broken.
break me.
i want to understand
there is an euxine ocean
beyond my bathtub.
Nov 19, 2010
Nov 19, 2010 at 4:41 AM UTC