I like smelling the top of your head
I'm opening up to you
I like laying next to you in bed
I like smothering you
Like a mother over all grounds covered
Over the needy and wishful you hover
with caring eyes, a big heart
The innocence and awkward feel of a child
but the sass of a grown woman
The breath of the wild
and the mind of the fearful and cautious
With a hint of adventure, but no balance..

Tears for years cloud my vision, threaten to drip but not drop.pain but no gain whoever said what doesn't **** you makes you stronger, forgot to tell me.what is the price of dignity? Is it the same as sympathy.I dont want it, I dont need it, my heart beats stronger everyday.  And an someway" i can stand tall.dont weep for me because iam not, not at all.

Starry night star's so close I think I might, fly to the moon and borrow some of her light.so my long cold dark nights may be a little bright.

What's hard about being honest?
Let them know that it's a contest
True love will only win the race
Like the turtle at a slow pace

Tell me how you really feel
What's hard about being real?
It's not about playing games
Feelings have to be the same
Not exactly but be true

If perception is deceived by one
Then step back and send them
Elsewhere on their path

Most want a character unfaked and pure
But how can we be so sure?
Think you found the "one"
That it's not just for fun?
If so, and that's what you want too
By all means, you do you

What's hard about this game we play?
I don't really want to play
What I want is genuine in existence

I want solid ground
I want intrinsic value in the flesh
An undeniable flame
Games put to rest

A match with the slightest, indeliberate provoktion,
wraths a sudden conflagration.

The depth of words, found in hate and bitterness,
disgustingly project with hope of hurt.

Revenge is worst when once kind gestures turned to grudges
are clinged, to be backfired.

Enough has been enough.
I'm not sorry anymore
For you being insecure
Show boating your nickles and dimes
Pursuiting happiness through lines
Hit your head while upside down
When you come crashing from that cloud
What is it you have left?
Nobody left at your side
Certainly not pride

Whenever you should cry
I will be your window to the sky
to remind you each time
that every rain pour is followed by the sun's shine.

I know you'll never do the same for me
because you know I already see
but it doesn't hurt any less
when you pretend not to notice my distress.

You tell me a joke and you make me smile
but this tactic of yours can only last for a while
it may help in the moment but does not make it better
and I realise that I am forever alone in this stormy weather.

I used to wonder each and every time,
Whether all his acts were false pretense or simply divine.
It was hard to believe he could ever lie,
Yet! The toughest thing for me was to bid him goodbye.

What I saw in the start was love and care for me,
Later I realized, it was a camouflage I couldn't foresee.
The moment I was on the verge to open my tight shut eyes,
There he was standing with another disguise.

I tried really hard to unveil his mask,
Thinking it is finally an end to this task.
What I found there was the shock of my life,
There were more masks beneath this mask of guise.

I ran away from him and thought of never seeing his face,
Just a flash of his memories reminded me of all those days.
I stopped myself to take my steps backward,
Not realizing that I was going back to a coward.

I knew I was making a blunder,
'Cause to him I was going to surrender.
I was too weak, that from him I failed to save my enclave,
But couldn't fight back as my greed for his love had made me his slave.

This self-revelation brought a start to another set of pretense,
Surprisingly! It was not him but me following thence.
Ignoring all his faults and lies I had ever known,
I moved forward with him, in selfish motive of my own.

Money or fame was not the reason,
Why then my heart longs for this person?
The question I used to ask myself every now and then,
The only viable answer was maybe I can relate to all his pains.

It was really long I fell for someone so fast,
I knew I was gonna go away and this ‘relationship’ is not going to last.
This realization was enough for me to forgive all his faults,
Call me selfish! But this was the only way to untangle the knots.

Maybe it’s not pretense, something I can’t understand,
Whenever I needed him, he stood by me as a friend.
So, what encouraged him to lie and betray me again and again?
Fear of losing people, makes him think only about his gains.

Digging deeper and deeper into this matter,
I forgot I don't have much time and I can do this later.
Few moments that are left, I wanna live with him
Sooner or later, he'll find his true self within

Lover or caretaker, whichever form he portrays to be in,
I can still find a good person in him,
So, when my love for him is so deeply intense,
Then, why not I live in another false pretense?!